Friday, December 09, 2011

Just a couple things I whipped up.

I was looking for a reason to pull out the old crochet hook. This was so quick and easy! I can make a granny square like nobody's business! lol

Been busy working, baking cookies, Christmas decorations, Christmas shopping. Last few days I have just been really tired.

Last weekend my husbands brother came out to visit us for the first time. We had a good time, we all went to Frankenmuth for the day. We went to Bronner's and everyone picked out new ornaments for the tree. I picked out a double heart for Frank and I, Amber picked a pig of course (she loves pigs). Darin picked a cute little Yeti (his nickname is yeti at school) Cuz he is so tall and harry and the last name. lol Then we ate at world famous Zehnder's, it took us and hour to be seated, but well worth the wait.

Sunday we woke up and had breakfast, and chit chatted a bit and then dropped his brother at the airport. It was a short visit, wish it was a better weather, we could have done way more with a little more time. Oh well, maybe next time!

Well I have to get off here and get ready for work. I will make an effort to post more often, I know with facebook I have laxed on

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Homecoming 2011

So tired of talking about bad things, so that's why no posts lately....

But heres a good thing that i am happy to report. Amber went to Homecoming and she looked beautiful! She decided to go by herself and she had a great time. After the dance we all went out to dinner with many friends at Ram's Horn. I'm glad she had a ball!

Monday, September 05, 2011

Mom's stone arrived!

Woke up this morning and took a ride to the cemetary to be surprised to find out that mom's stone arrived. The person told us 6 to 8 weeks and it's only been 2. It was great to see it. It hit my father and I like a ton of bricks...We had a good cry. She Is and was an amazing lady. I suppose the next time we go there it will be set in it's place...Its suppose to lay down flat, they have it up for the crew to come in and set it down. I promised her that I would make sure that it will be taken care of as long as I am able. Then I am sure my children will help after that.

She is gone...but will never be forgotten!!!! I LOVE YOU MOM!!!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011


FOR ALL OF YOU WAITING IN HEAVEN:I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too.I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame.Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part. God has you in his arms. I have you in my heart.Put this as your status if someone you miss is in heaven ♥ ♥

I miss you everyday Mom!!!!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Darin turned 17

I Can't believe Darin turned 17 on August 16th. Just seems like yesterday I was bringing him home from the hospital. I couldn't be prouder of this boy that is turning into a man in front of my eyes! I'm still enjoying all of his first. In the beginning it was his first smile, laugh, crawling and walking, first words.....As he grew it was his first shave, his first drive, getting his driver's license, his first date and soon he will graduate high school.

I look at him in awwww....he's such a sweetie, he takes care of me, he never wants to see me sad! He took great care of his grandma, there was nothing he wouldn't do for her. I'll never forget the walk in the hall at the hospital where he grabbed her hand because he was afraid she would fall. (The pic is just a couple of older posts down)

He will be a great man, husband, and father one day!! Can't wait to enjoy what the next few years brings.
Love you Darin with all of my being!!!!

Grandma R.I.P

My nephew Matthew made this and it made me cry! Love You Mom! Miss you everyday!!!

Saturday, August 06, 2011


We ordered mom's headstone on Tuesday....The picture above is the picture we chose to have laser etched on her stone. The stone will be black, the letters in white. It will have her name, her birthdate, her death date and will say Loving wife, mother and grandmother. It's going to take 6 to 9 weeks when it arrives I will post a pic. I am really hoping they can use this picture because I couldn't find another i wanted to use.

I miss her everyday!!! Rest in Peace mom, my best friend! I still can't believe she's gone.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Mom's spot!

When I went to the cemetary, this was the spot that I "felt" was perfect, i'm standing on the exact spot where she is burried
..In the middle of the area stands these 3 huge monuments, all with pictures of christ and one says "Christ arose" one says "Christ died" and one says "Christ Lived" She is buried between 2 trees and she gets the afternoon shade always...
Also in this area, all four corners have beautiful monuments! I think it's perfect..

Every single tree in this cemetary will always be there....If one dies they replace it with another tree. I think that is awesome!

It's called Resurrection Cemetary on Clinton River Rd. and Romeo Plank ...

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

In Loving Memory of my mother Paula!

One of mom's favorite pics...Just after her triple bypass!

It's with the saddest of hearts that I have to say that my mother Pauline M. Bagnasco passed away on July 2, 2011.

On June 22nd, she woke up like any other day and was drinking her coffee in her favorite spot on her couch while my father was looking for something in her bedroom in just the next room. My father said that he heard her say something but did not make it out. He came out asking her what she said and saw her laying on the couch and went to her and shook her to see if she fell back to sleep, with no response he jumped into action with CPR and dialing 911, but when EMS arrived she already had a weak pulse and shocked her 2 times to get her heart started. Yes she was clinically dead on arrival.

At the hospital we were informed it was critical and the next 24 hours would tell us more. About 2 days into it we found out that it was a massive heart attack followed by a massive stroke that caused anoxic brain injury and that she was not clinically brain dead but had some reflux actions still. The massive stroke caused her to seizure in the worst way... at first it was small twitching. After hearing from the doctors that she was pretty much just a body and would never be able to do anything as far as quality of life we decided to take her off the ventalator and if God wanted her to let her pass in peace. The only other decision was to make her live the rest of her life on a trach tube in her neck where she would eventually die from some kind of infection.

Her seizures got worse and took more and more drugs to control her body. We could not let her suffer like that. We took the tube out on June 30th and hoped for the best, but knowing that there was not much of a chance. Her body slowly shut down and on July 2nd, 2011 at about 8:05 am. She took her last breath.

I was there the entire time she was hospitalized, I only went home to shower and grab a bite. I was woken at 7 am by her bed side by the nurse to tell me her heart rate changed and that she felt it would be soon. She was right. :(

Two days before her death my father asked me to do some leg work for the funeral "just in case" I went to a cemetary that she had mentioned once to me. And when I got there I was greeted by a gentleman who was holding a paper stating that my mother had called there 5 times since 2009 for information on plots. I was stunned! No one knew she had even thought of it! I told him if thats not an omen that I am in the right place i don't know what is. We drove around the cemetary and my eyes were pulled to an area, and when we stopped there i "felt" the right spot! It's beautiful! I will post pics soon as things settle down.

After her passing I went clothes shopping for her and found the most beautiful baby blue pant suit that was just perfect for her. We saw her for visitation yesterday and she was gorgeous! We have visitation again tonight and tomorrow Thursday the 7th we bury her graveside at the most beautiful spot in the cemetary. We are having her luncheon at the "Gazebo" which i know she loved that place.

I will write more when I can. But I think she would be proud of what i have done for her. I will forever miss her! I LOVE HER WITH ALL OF MY HEART!

Till we see each other again.

Saturday, May 07, 2011


Alot has happened. Not sure where to start. I'll start with the most important thing in my life and that's my mother.

Mom has been having many tests and found out that an artery in her neck was getting blocked again so they were talking surgery, but before they could do that they sent her for some tests to check out her heart for the surgery. They did the usual stress test and the ekg showed that there was some abnormalities. Well then that brings her to the next step of a cardiac catherization and that showed many blockages so she was rushed to another hospital to receive stents, but when they went in the second time they said that they were so blocked that they could not do it. So their next course of action was to perform open heart surgery, they were talking anywhere from a triple bypass to maybe doing a 5 bypass. She had the catherization last Thursday and had her surgery this Tuesday, she had to wait because she has been on blood thinners for awhile now. I'm happy to say that she is doing very well right now. She had so many wires and tubes everywhere that would scare anyone! As of today she has nothing but 2 IV's on her that are not even connected to anything. She isn't even on oxygen anymore. I am so proud of her, she has been thru so much. Can you believe that she will still have to go back and do the surgery on her neck?! She is a trooper!

On May 1st my mom and dad celebrated their 41st anniversary in the hospital. The nurse was so nice to get them some nice cupcakes for the occasion. Today was my mother's birthday she turned 62 years old today! I took up a small birthday cake and we sang Happy Birthday and gave her one of the funniest cards. Tomorrow is mother's day and I will bring up the nice hanging plant I got her and a pretty card to chear her up.

I got really sad news on Wednesday. My uncle norman passed away. He had been in and out of my hospital and this time it was not good....He had bleeding ulcers, they were treating him for that and then they sent him to a nursing home where he ended up getting the worse bed sore you ever wanna see that lead to a staff infection and ended up with MRSA, by the time the nursing home sent him back to our hospital it was too late, the MRSA had taken it's toll on his body. All I can say is that he isn't suffering anymore. He has been thru alot himself. So tommorrow on mother's day I will be going to my uncle's wake. Sad!

I'm just so emotionally exhausted! I'm worried, scared, nervous, mourning, sad and also excited about my trip on the 25th.

I still plan on going on my trip as long as my mother continues to do well!!!! My friends and I plan on going to the St. Louis zoo, the arch, and the budweiser brewery. I also got surprised with tickets to a broadway musical called "Jersey Boys" from my Bestie Gary. It's the story of Frankie Valli! I am way excited!! Never been to a musical before!!! And the last time I even went to a play was back in the 6th grade about a million years

Darin is waiting on his pictured driver's license to come into the mail. He did pretty well on his driver's test. The parking gave him a small amount of trouble but that's for anyone! But on the road he did me proud! Amber starts driver's ed on Monday....Lord help us all! lol I can't believe how old they are, they are making me feel old!! Many milestones conquered and many more to come. Darin will be graduating next! Time flies!

Oh Frank has been working with a temp service, they sent him to like 4 different shops, they would just work him for awhile and then run out of work. Well for the last 3 weeks he has been working for a shop and it looks like they really like him. They said keep coming, hopefully he can get his 90 days and get hired in. It would take alot of pressure off of me!!! Just the fact that they told him to keep coming relaxes me a little bit. Hopefully things will continue to look better.

Well I hope all you Mother's out there have a great day tomorrow!!!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Hello peeps

Well old age has just set in. lol I now have to have glasses for the first time in my life!! Here's me out by the water with my son Darin, yep those are my glasses. They are transition so they were kinda nice to be wearing in the sun. I went for a check up on my eyes just for the heck of it and found out that I have 40/20 vision...that i am far sighted and that i have diabetic retinopothy. Everyone got new specs, Amber insisted on getting contacts this year and she is doing very well with them. I can tell you that next year I will be doing contacts! I don't like glasses!

Anywho today I set the date for a major stepping stone for my son. On April 23rd he will be taking his driving test for his driver's license. He should do fine, becuz he does not make me nervous in the least. I'm scared of my husbands driving more than my 16 year old son's. lol

Amber is going to be starting driver's training in May. They are growing up too fast!!!

Also starting May 22nd I am officially on a 2 week vacation I will be off till June 4th! What am i gonna do for that long...well for 3 days i will be preparing for my trip to Alton, Illinois to visit with one of my best friends! I will be about 15 minutes from St. Louis. I will spend the 25th till the 30 with my 2 best friends in the world, no kids, no husband, just pure great fun!!!

So I guess i will have lots to talk about when i get back from my trip!! I am so excited...38 days till i'm on vacation and 41 days till i am having the most fun!

And i made sure that i was going to have a small vacation from my vacation...I will have a few days to unwind before hitting that grindstone again!!

take care all, I am still in and out of here and I read your blogs as much as possible...but ya gotta admit facebook is the greatest thing!! lol

Monday, March 14, 2011

Nuttin's up!

I'm still here, just been busy working. I had my friend visit for the past 10 days and enjoyed having her.

Frank does not have a full time job yet, but he has been working at a factory off and on. I am hoping that they hire him soon.

The kids are doing great.

Wish there was more to say but there really isn't.

All i know is i need a vacation!!!!! lol

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Blanket that i made for my bestie!

My latest crochet project...I made this for my best friend Barb, and she loves it!

I used a larksfoot stitch and I love how it came out...and she loves how it came out..

Sunday, January 02, 2011

Holiday what nots....

We celebrated Christmas Eve at my Mom's because I had to work on Christmas day...everyone had a good time.

My nephew Matt and my Niece Sarah
Sarah and Amber...Happy cousins.

Me, Mom, my sister Wendy


Amber and her boyfriend Khalil
Christmas Day at my house...Darin got some dumbbells to increase his manly muscles...

He's gonna smell purty :)

The jump rope he wanted! To increase his manly muscles some more!

Yay, a new manly wallet!

It was already equipped with his gift card to border's, so he can get him some more anime.

Ya!!! a new hoodie!!! and she loves herself some eeyore!!

I tricked them with one gift they could not figure out to save their

she's gonna smell purty too!

Yay!!! mascara and eyeliner so that she can stay outta
We are all happy with what we got and Thankful!!!
Hoping that this New Year is better of course...2010 sucked!!!