Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Little of this and that!

Got a few things to update ya on...1.  This is my new vehicle...2011 chevy traverse and I love it...It's getting a new radio tomorrow because for some reason the one in it keeps jumping to auxillary input device...So that got ordered today and installed tomorrow..  It drives like a dream.  Never going back to a small car...What was i thinking!!!
 2.  I was feeling cute on this day...love the new me!!  This was the real me trapped inside the whole time!!!  Doing everything i can to keep it that way!!!
 3.  This month was really hard on me...I went into a deep depression at the start of the month and I couldn't figure out why...Friends at work and online kept saying what is wrong with you.."you seem distant, not yourself".  Well it took me a few days to figure out that around May is when mom went down hill.  May 1st her doctor put her in the hospital  and it was her and my fathers wedding anniversary.  May 2nd they found out she had 5  blockages to the heart. May 5th she had triple bypass surgery and the 7th was her 65th birthday and then of course it was Mother's day!  So I think subconsciously I put my myself into a deep depression...But now that i am realizing it I think things are better...But it still going to be a hard couple months for me...because as of June 22nd will mark the day that she stopped breathing on her own and then July 2nd will mark her third year that she is no longer with us.  D.E.P.R.E.S.S.I.N.G.!!!

There is not a day that I don't miss her.  Wishing she was still her for her guidance..Amber is graduating soon and really hate the fact that she missed both kids walking the stage for their diplomas...Of course I know she was there and will be there for Amber too.  But still not the same!!

This picture is of my mom when she graduated high school!!!  She was so beautiful!!!  I so wished her life was better than it had turned out...She deserved it!!  But she chose the hard and rocky path, but her gain was her children and her grandchildren!   She would be so proud of her grand kids...Darin working on his 3rd year of college starting in August.  Darin also got a letter from College stating that he is on the Deans list for 2013!!!  So very pround of my boy!!!...Amber choosing to be a nurse..

.Her other grandchildren doing so well in school. Sarah, is doing great in school and is now going to be in marching band...She is so very talented with her coronet!!  I got the opportunity to watch her and her 2 other band mates play for regionals and was accepted into states and won!!!  And her grandson Matthew is doing very well with his grades also, is is a wiz on the computer!!  I know mom is looking down and is very proud!!

 This picture is the hanging basket my daughter Amber got me for Mother's day :)
 This picture was of my mother and father and me!!!  leaving the hospital.   Just some throw backs that touch my heart!
 This is the other gift from my wonderful daughter for mother's day :)
 Darin got me this for mother's day...ya, i'm a little spoiled :)   He says he's getting me something else but it has to wait.....He don't have to give me nothing but his love....Love my kids!!  They are my rock!! The reason i keep going!!
No post will do without showing off my little Spencer.  He's so smart!! Ok  This link is of Spencer knowing his body parts!!  such a cute video!!!

Hope you enjoy...And I hope that everyone Had a fantastic Mother's Day!!!


River Glorious said...

So sweet to remember your mother, and sorry you were depressed. I still have my mother, but my father has been gone these 28 years already.That's a nice picture of her you've got there. :)

momma said...

I know you must miss your mom. The little time I got to visit her Via the blog was wonderful. I think of her each time I visit you. Please know that she is still remembered here also.


♥Caroline♥ said...

thank you ladies!!

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