One down, one more to go!!! lol

JUNE 3RD, 2012

                                             my sister

                                           party in the backyard

                                          neighbors

                                          cousins

                                          old friends.

                                           old neighbors

                                           greatest group of friends ever!

                                              Darin's friends

                                              old neighbors

                                         alot of wrestling with the buddies happend

                                              watching the action.

                                           The bestest guy friend i cold ever have!!!

                                            Best friends forever!!!!

                                              goofing around!!

Had a super time at Darin's graduation party!!!  The weather cooperated most of the day...had one down pour that lasted 10 minutes but for the most part it was awesome!!  I had alot of people in my house...I had 9 people staying with me..it was hard but we managed.....so glad everything turned out great, everyone had a good time..saw some old friends, old neighbors but everyone that i adore was there!!!  Loved it!!

Hopefully get to do it all over again in another 2 years with Amber!! lol

Darin Prom May 11th, 2012

                                                    My handsome little boy

                                          Me and my boy!

                                                One of his good buddies!!  13 years of friendship

                                            Him slipping his dates corsage on her...Danielle

                                             He gets his flower

                                               cute couple

                     

                                          Danielle, Darin and her mother and father

                                           Danielle and her aunt

                                          Danielle and her friend April

                                             Funny photo

The whole time i was there i was wishing my mother was seeing this...Look at the mist and the white orb above Darin.  I don't think it was the sun...cuz i was just under the chauffeurs armpit!  lol

Anyway, i am going to hope that it was her there with him...He had an amazing time!  They danced the night away!

My Lil Man!

Darin went for his tuxedo fitting for Prom on the 11th of May.  He almost had me in tears, he is just so handsome and I am so very proud of this boy! All I could think about was that I wished my mother could see him!  Especially on Friday when he picks up his girl in the Limo and taking pictures.  I know my mother will be there in spirit, I expect an orb in his pictures standing right beside him.

He is very goal oriented.  He plans on going to college in August, he is going to study to be a mechanic.  I always knew he would do something with his hands. He loves to fix things!  Lately my neighbor has been breaking down alot and he was right there helping, getting his hands dirty and he says that he is loving every minute of it!! Lord knows his momma could use a mechanic in the family..lol

I will take a butt load of pictures on Friday of him and his lady friend.  They are good friends, he had the courage to ask her to prom.  He has asked her on 2 dates before, but I just think he is to shy to ask her to be more.  He says that he would rather concentrate on school for now.  (ya shocked me to)  But that only makes me prouder!!

His last day of high school is May 25th and he gets his diploma on the 31st.  I know I am gonna cry, just the thought makes me tear up now that I am typing this.  He's always been a good boy, watching him grow up to be a great man has been my pleasure!

We are having his graduation party on June 3rd!  Lets hope it's great weather...I am hoping for it not to be hot and and no rain!

Hope everyone is doing well!  I do pop in and out on here when I can.

I did it!

On may 1st I went and had gastric sleeve surgery.  The week before i had to put myself on a very strict diet, ended up losing 13 pounds that way.  Only been a couple days.  I get so full so fast!  I gotta get used to this new way.  Still not sure how I feel about it.  Gonna be a long road, but I am willing to do this.  I will be posting pics as I progress :) 

Surgery?

Well the wheels are in motion for me to get bariactric surgery. I gained back every pound i had lost after mom passed away. The way i see it there was nothing stopping me from reverting. With this surgery I can't revert, I will make myself sick if i do. It is what i need to keep myself focused! I have a few friends at work that have done this and they look amazing. I can do this! I have to!

Monday I go to my doctor for clearance from him, which i know i will cuz he recommended it. Also on Monday i have my first of 2 pysch evaluations and then a stress test and I get my date for surgery.

I know it's going to be hard and it's going to be alot of sacrifice. No pop ever, no red meats. No rice or pasta for awhile. I will be on multi vitamins and calcium for the rest of my life...but if it gets me off of insulin and all the other drugs, it's worth it! The hard part is getting enough protein in me so that i don't get sick. Gotta eat 60 to 80 grams a day...In fish, chicken, turkey yogurt. Later i can have some pork. But I guess there is some kind of protein shake that i can buy to help me get what i need. I will miss hamburger and steak!!!! But maybe with time i can have a little.

The surgery my doctor and the surgeon picked out for me and think will work the best for me is called the Sleeve.

Well i will let ya know how it goes.

I'm still going strong.

Ya I know it's been awhile...lol

Well i do want to start out that my husband finally has a permanent job. It's a big factory, and already he had 2 raises...one from being hired in and another for making it 3 months hired in. So some worry is off my shoulders. Just playing catch up for over a years worth of trying to keep the house. He seems to like it there and from the way he talks it seems they like him, this makes me happy.

I can't believe it's already been six months since mom passed. I pray everyday that she would come to me in a dream. I miss her so much! The day after Christmas i was at her grave, with a beautiful arrangement that is appropriate to keep there. Wished her a Merry Christmas and told her how much she is missed. I told her how I screwed up Christmas dinner...Not horribly but it wasn't as good as hers! I tried, I will learn how to do it right! The holidays will never be the same.

I would say that the first 4 months was hard, I wasn't sleeping, i wasn't even really existing! Just was here. The last 2 months I feel like me! I have good days and i have bad. My father makes it hard. He's so lonely, he thinks it's time for him to find another...all that really is the fact that he can't stand being home all by himself and the fact he has to do everything for himself...he is definitely not used to that. Cooking is his major complaint. I help with his bills, but that's all i'm pretty much doing. My sister comes over every once in a while to help clean. My dad could drive someone insane, I really don't know how my mom put up with him!

My son Darin is excited that he will be all graduated by May 25th, his commencement is on May 31st. We are all excited... I am thinking of having his party on June 3rd...I really need to start finding a place to have it. Start getting decorations and things like that.

My daughter has done most of her steps to get her driver's license. She only needs to take driving test and go to secretary of state and get it. She still gets a little nervous, but drives well. Darin has alot more confidence in it.

Work for me hasn't been great, they have me doing alot of the stock position that i hate soooo much! They came to me and asked if i would like to start doing it 5 days a week. I think that I will tell them tomorrow No! I will never get off of it and I don't want to start hating getting up every morning to go to work. It will depress me to no end!

I had my car in the car repair shop last week because the engine light came on. Turned out to need a tune up and for a week all was good, but yesterday it came back on...I hope it won't cost me a fortune! Figures that when it's almost paid off things start falling apart. Hopefully its a warranty thing and won't cost me nothing. :)

Well my friends...Lets hope for a great 2012!

Just a couple things I whipped up.

I was looking for a reason to pull out the old crochet hook. This was so quick and easy! I can make a granny square like nobody's business! lol

Been busy working, baking cookies, Christmas decorations, Christmas shopping. Last few days I have just been really tired.

Last weekend my husbands brother came out to visit us for the first time. We had a good time, we all went to Frankenmuth for the day. We went to Bronner's and everyone picked out new ornaments for the tree. I picked out a double heart for Frank and I, Amber picked a pig of course (she loves pigs). Darin picked a cute little Yeti (his nickname is yeti at school) Cuz he is so tall and harry and the last name. lol Then we ate at world famous Zehnder's, it took us and hour to be seated, but well worth the wait.

Sunday we woke up and had breakfast, and chit chatted a bit and then dropped his brother at the airport. It was a short visit, wish it was a better weather, we could have done way more with a little more time. Oh well, maybe next time!

Well I have to get off here and get ready for work. I will make an effort to post more often, I know with facebook I have laxed on here...lol

Homecoming 2011

So tired of talking about bad things, so that's why no posts lately....

But heres a good thing that i am happy to report. Amber went to Homecoming and she looked beautiful! She decided to go by herself and she had a great time. After the dance we all went out to dinner with many friends at Ram's Horn. I'm glad she had a ball!

Mom's stone arrived!

Woke up this morning and took a ride to the cemetary to be surprised to find out that mom's stone arrived. The person told us 6 to 8 weeks and it's only been 2. It was great to see it. It hit my father and I like a ton of bricks...We had a good cry. She Is and was an amazing lady. I suppose the next time we go there it will be set in it's place...Its suppose to lay down flat, they have it up for the crew to come in and set it down. I promised her that I would make sure that it will be taken care of as long as I am able. Then I am sure my children will help after that.

She is gone...but will never be forgotten!!!! I LOVE YOU MOM!!!

♥Mom♥

FOR ALL OF YOU WAITING IN HEAVEN:I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too.I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame.Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part. God has you in his arms. I have you in my heart.Put this as your status if someone you miss is in heaven ♥ ♥



I miss you everyday Mom!!!!

Darin turned 17

I Can't believe Darin turned 17 on August 16th. Just seems like yesterday I was bringing him home from the hospital. I couldn't be prouder of this boy that is turning into a man in front of my eyes! I'm still enjoying all of his first. In the beginning it was his first smile, laugh, crawling and walking, first words.....As he grew it was his first shave, his first drive, getting his driver's license, his first date and soon he will graduate high school.

I look at him in awwww....he's such a sweetie, he takes care of me, he never wants to see me sad! He took great care of his grandma, there was nothing he wouldn't do for her. I'll never forget the walk in the hall at the hospital where he grabbed her hand because he was afraid she would fall. (The pic is just a couple of older posts down)

He will be a great man, husband, and father one day!! Can't wait to enjoy what the next few years brings.
Love you Darin with all of my being!!!!

Grandma R.I.P

My nephew Matthew made this and it made me cry! Love You Mom! Miss you everyday!!!

Headstone.

We ordered mom's headstone on Tuesday....The picture above is the picture we chose to have laser etched on her stone. The stone will be black, the letters in white. It will have her name, her birthdate, her death date and will say Loving wife, mother and grandmother. It's going to take 6 to 9 weeks when it arrives I will post a pic. I am really hoping they can use this picture because I couldn't find another i wanted to use.

I miss her everyday!!! Rest in Peace mom, my best friend! I still can't believe she's gone.