so much has happened!

Just had to put a pic of my now 16 year old son!

I'm so tired from working a zillion hours! and on this day I got up early and made breakfast, worked, thru a birthday party, went to church and then took my daughter and her boyfriend to the movies.. ack!

Some progress is being made on my weight loss...down 46 pounds...although I don't think this week is going to show any progress...I am so stressed!

Amber turned 15 on the 26th of this month...she is growing up so fast!!

I made her birthday cake, she wanted a banana cake, I did the best that i could!

A tree fell in my backyard. thanking god that the only real damage was done to a fence!

The fence is under there somewhere!

I became a grandma for a school project. She named him Jaden Treyvon Barney...It was a definite learning experience for her. But the dang thing was so loud it woke me 6 times in one night...Thank God that's over with.

The 17th was hubby and I's wedding anniversary. Sixteen years of wedded bliss. We all went to the cider mill and walked around some paths and took some really nice pics.

I love this pic, I'm gonna get it blown up!

and this one of my son is a definite keeper!

I tried to play professional camera woman.

So much has gone on. None of it really good.

Hubby is still out of work.

Amber had another reaction to another medicine.

Still don't know what is going on with her.

The hot water tank stopped working again and when it was supposed to be fixed a tree fell in my backyard, and the hot water tank did not get fixed that day.

My mom went into the hospital again with another stroke. This one almost blinded her. She was blind for a few hours! She is ok right now, but she will have another surgery, apparently she has a 80% blockage in her neck.

So the month of September has really sucked!!!!! Hopefully October will get better.

Ok, where was I.

If there is anyone that reads my blog that has facebook and would like to be my friend on facebook let me know. It's easier for me to update real quick over there. But this will always be my little diary:)

Lets see, Frank is still looking for a job, he did have one interview but he hasn't heard anything back. He is depressed and was taking it out on all of us. He fought with everyone, my father, our kids, me, I was ready to beat his butt!!! Then I snapped at him and gave him a bit of a slap in the face (sort of speak) to just chill out!! It's going to be ok....But i found out from my neighbor that he confides in that it's because he is sorta depressed and worried about me. He doesn't like me working so much. But I am, what I call in "survival mode" working all these days and hours is not bothering me at the moment as long as it's for survival.

I am just thanking God that at the moment I can get the hours at my work, there are hours "a plenty" open right now! I don't mind most days. But when Frank does find a job, you know i am taking a vacation!!! lol
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Now about Amber, she has just started vomiting again. For a couple months after taking antibiotics she pretty much just stopped vomiting. She did not even take her acid reducers. Now she is back on acid reducers. Tomorrow I go see a Infectious disease doctor and tell him the whole story and pretty much hope that there is something that he can do. I hope that he finds something!!! After this, I have no clue what I am going to do.
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The kids, they are both in high school now. They had their first full day today, Amber was excited about being with her friends. Both would rather stay home...lol Darin has weight lifting, he is hoping to bulk up nicely. He would look so good! He also took drawing...remember the pictures i showed you before that he had done...I think he has a little talent. He also starts calculus this year. Hope he can handle it, he has always done good with math, he says it's easy, we will see!!

Amber took child development, she's excited about getting one of those fake babies. Hope she learns to not have one for a very long time!! lol She also has Business computers, I know she will like that!! The rest for both children is math, social studies, history and all of that kind of thing. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

I am hoping to get my front brakes done this weekend before they get too bad. Thankfully i have a mechanic friend that owes me a favor :) so it's only costing me parts....well actually he is going to pretty much instruct my husband on how to do it because he is on some restrictions for his leg. But at least it's going to get done.
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Me, well, I had horrible pains, my back tried to go out on me.I had a pinched nerve, it caused my foot to go numb..thankfully I had a back brace and some vicodin that helped make it thru the day at work until I saw the doctor and got the shot in my back, and i also took a shot in the left elbow that had been bothering me for quite awhile. But the pain is slowly coming back in my elbow. I think i may take another shot in the heel the next time I see my doctor, the heel spurs are hurting! But again I am thanking God that I am not missing any days at work and am able to work a ridiculous amount of hours lately!!!
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One thing that i do know is that i have great friends, life long friends, I even have special friends at work, ones that actually care about me!!! These days i need them all!!!

Oh and I have posted my new weight loss, look at that girl move across the board!! Down 44 pounds!!! It amazes me!! Some days are harder than others! For me to lose anything while depressed and stressed is amazing!!

Well I am outta here!!! Gotta get some zzzzzzz's!

The Poem I wrote Jaycee

Remember the poem that I wrote for Jaycee for her graduation, Well Masen finally got it up on the computer.....So now I can share it with you guys...

Darin's Sweet 16!

Today was my day off and I owed Darin a little sweet 16 celebration!! I would show you a pic of his birthday cake but Darin was cutting into it before i could even snap a pic...lol
Notice how my big boy towers over all of us!!


Darin, Mom, and me.

Amber, mom, Darin and me

Darin, mom, Amber and Frank

Darin, mom, Amber Frank

This is what Darin thinks about turning 16!!!!

I love this boy!!!

Hey, you miss me?

I have been sooooo busy working, I work almost everyday and working many double shifts. Why? Well that's simple, about 2 weeks ago my hubby was informed that his services are no longer required at his job!! Yep, permanently lay off! So then I filed for unemployment for him and they give you something close to JACK NOTHING!!! So I went to my bosses and they have been hooking me up big time with hours!!!

That's just the beginning of my woes! Let's see, Amber broke out big time under her armpits again! The doctor did a biopsy to see what was going on with that...I will find out on the 25Th what those results are. She had massive amounts of puss filled pimple's, boils, whatever you want to call those. She took another 10 days worth of antibiotics and guess what!! She has suddenly pretty much stopped puking!!! So I am pretty sure that the mrsa in her body and this puking has something to do with it...so it may be bacterial? I'm not sure but i talked with my family doctor and he also agrees with me that it could be something that an infectious disease doctor should take a look at.

Ok, not enough? Well try that my hot water tank took a crap. With working alot and stuff it took me almost a week to dig out my warranty that i had on it because it's only 3 years old, Thank God that I purchased the 5 year warranty on it!! After about a weeks worth of the coldest showers that you can imagine, I had someone fix it!! Apparently the gas line became loose from the vibrations of my furnace being right next to it. Only took the guy about 15 minutes to say your all set! Yay!!

With all that said and down, my back was hurting and I started to wear my back brace to work well yesterday was about all I could take with the pain...I practically overdosed on vicodin to make myself nice and relaxed and pulled my back brace nice and tight to make it thru another shift at work. I called my doctors office and they squeezed me in after work. I got a shot in the hip and a shot in my left elbow(my left elbow has been killing me for awhile now) Now my back is feeling pretty good, but the pain was radiating down my right leg and my foot. Pretty sure it's a pinched nerve...the back is feeling tons better but I still can't feel my foot, which is making me walk funny....hope this ends soon!! I'm thanking God that I was still able to do my job, They are being so nice to me by giving me all this overtime.

Well, we don't even want to get into my financial woes! But the Lord is making things happen with all of that too!

Alright is that enough bad stuff? yeh, i think enough for one day.

Here's a good thing to throw out there...My work put up a notice that we are all getting a pretty sizable bonus check, and it's coming on Monday!!! Hallelujah so it may get me caught up on some of my bills...which means that I will have to try and keep it up...I may have to think ahead about Christmas and try out a layaway...if i can make that possible at all or my kids will have pert near nothing! I am in survival mode lately, which is helping make it thru all the hours of work.

Hopefully Frank will find another job soon.....a descent job, making descent money!! I know things happen for a reason, I'm hoping that this will work out good for us! If ya gotta sec for a quick prayer for my little family, it is appreciated!! Thanks!

OHHHHHHHHHH I almost forgot, my son Darin turned 16 on the 16th of this Month!! Because i had to work a billion hours we are celebrating it tomorrow with cake and ice cream!!

So that's been my hectic ummmm month or so??? How's things with ya'll??

Vacation/Masen's Graduation.

My little ladies man Darin and Jaycee

Look, he likes the cougars!! lol

My girl Amber and I

Just got home from a weeks worth of vacation!!! After Jury duty on Wednesday I came home loaded up the car and North I went. Had a blast!! On Thursday we went tubing down the Rifle River, I almost made the whole trip without an incident! But not my luck, about less than a quarter of a mile I thought i was stuck on some rocks and it turned out that i was stuck on a log with a branch that was shaped like a dagger and ended up popping my tube...dang it!! Had to take one of the kids tubes to finish our ride. It was still fun tho!! And i would do it again!

Friday we had to set up the hall and finish the food and Saturday we had a blast at the party!! We got up early to clean the hall on Sunday and then off to the beach!!! We came home that evening, because I think my husband was missing us and there is something wrong with my dog, but still not sure what it is. I'm going to give him a few more days and see what happens.

Silly Darin!

And the cutest couple award goes to Jaycee(my best friends daughter) and her honey Josh!

The graduate!!!! Masen, he graduated a whole year early!! So proud of him!

Me and my favorite girl!! Jaycee!



Just been catching up on housework, and back to the grindstone at work. Next month we are having a family reunion!! We haven't had one in a few years. Should be fun! I hope quite a bit shows up, it would be nice to see what the cousins are doing!

NOT ALOT

Amber loves taking pictures of herself...

Not alot has been happening....Amber's test results show that she is in normal range for everything. The doctor says he gives up and there is nothing else that he can do for her. Told me to start taking her to children's and see what they can do. So now i gotta see what i have to do so that my insurance will cover children's hospital and whatever they do.

My weight is staying the same at the moment. Hating dieting right now! But my sugars are still awesome, so that is one good thing about dieting! My will power is not as strong as it once was.

I'll get back on the boat again soon.

I don't get alot of time on the computer because I have been pulling alot of doubles at work. Tomorrow will be my 4th double in a week. Trying to make some extra money while I can. I am going up North for a few days for a graduation party and see my bestie!!!

Well that's about it for now....Ya'll take care

Wednesday weigh-in

Man, I can't seem to get that scale to go down....but right now I know why..period bloating(tmi?) umm get over it...lol I have to wait a few days, or wait until next Wednesday to check again...

Anyhoo, my friend Charlie joined the 40's club with me on Saturday and a group of us went out for the night.

Charlie and I we have been friends since the 6th grade! 29 years of friendship!!! I hadn't seen him since shortly after graduation...another friendship renewed due to Facebook!!

Getting my groove on!!

Me and my friend Megan!!!! Friends for 18 years or so.

Megan, Me, my bestest friend Barb(friends for like 30 years)!! and Lori.

Me and hubby enjoying a night out on the town with some of the closest friends we have!!

Amber's Prom

I made her strike the paris hilton pose...lol

I may never see her in another dress...lol

One hot momma!

Well, I am waiting on the results from the impedance test she took at Children's hospital. I hate the waiting!

Anyhoo, I have to get back on my diet, the last few days have been really hard for me. I gotta get back into the game with that.

Other than that nothing much going on. The kids can't wait to get the last four days of school out of the way!

BIRTHDAY WHATEVER'S!

Yesterday i tried to post...but blogger was not having it!!

Anywho, I am going to start out by saying that I turned 40 today!!! Not real excited about it, in fact that a few times I got a little anxious about it. If it wasn't for everything that is going on with my daughter I would probably curl up into a ball. I ain't got time for that! Also today is my father's 63rd birthday!! So happy Birthday Daddy!!! Yeh, I was my father's biggest present!!

Also today is the day that Amber is going to spend the night at Children's hospital in Detroit for an impedance test....It's to test for non-acid reflux. So this will be how i spend my 40th Birthday. I'm such a party animal!!! lol

So a few nights ago Amber and I went on a hair extravaganza! I touched up Amber's roots with blonde and I dyed my hair a medium ash blonde...Nothing extreme, just brightened up my face a little bit, which is all i wanted.

I got a letter in the mail to report for Jury Duty in July, lucky me, why me?, This will be my third time!! Isn't there a limit to how many times they can call you in? Dang it!

I can't believe that we are already a half a year into this year!! Time is flying!!

Darin is doing very well with his driving!! I like his driving more than his father's driving!

School is almost over, the kids are getting excited! Making plans to do this and that. My plans are simple, maybe a few picnics at the beach, going to the Warren pool....things like that.
Well, that's pretty much it....The picture above is my new hair color..
Later people!

Wednesday weigh-in showed

I'm tired so this is going to be short and sweet!! I have alot to tell ya, but tonight it's only about the 2 pounds i lost making it 39 pounds down!! I will write more tomorrow!

News about Amber and Me.

Amber had her ph probe done and the result turned out normal. I was devastated. I was hoping this would prove whatever was wrong with her. Apparently she does not have alot of acid in her vomit. So now he thinks she may have non-acid reflux and there is a test, similar to the ph probe, but unfortunately our hospitals don't perform this test. When he called me he said to me "I don't know what's wrong with your daughter, take her to children's"... Another devastating thing for me to hear. For him to just give up, because it's not an easy case!? So now i have to play with the insurance company to pay for me to go outside the network, because the St. John's doctor is referring it! Otherwise I will have one massive bill, I am sure. I know I will get them to, but if not I will pay if it will give me results!!

I cried the full day at work, so frustrated with it all. So lost, not knowing what to do now, so powerless. I have never felt so out of control, all I can do is take it one day at a time and hope that they find a cure! I find myself withdrawing into myself, not really wanting to talk about anything, forcing myself to get thru a day, i do it because i know i have to, but don't want to!! I know it's depression and it sucks!!! I force myself not to overeat, but believe me I could eat and eat and never get full. This is a true test!!


Here's a couple of pics with the ph probe test thing.
The little box had buttons that you had to push, one was for when she felt like she had to vomit or if she vomited. One button was for when ever she ate or drank and then another button to tell it when she was laying down or sitting up.

We decided to make the best out of a bad situation and color the tape. I tried to cheer her up :)

About the only good news that i have to share is that my doctor called me and was so surprised on my blood work...Everything was good. My A1C came down from a 10 to a 6 which is exactly where he wants me...and the one shocking news was that my cholesterol is down to 152 I have never had it under 200 before!!

My doctor said that if the report did not have my name on it, he would think it was another person...He told me whatever your doing keep it up and maybe we can get you off some of these meds!!! woohoo!!!

My husband also got a phone call from the doctor, he warned Frank that if he did not start watching his sugar that he will be put on pills!!! WHAT A SWITCH!!!!

Wednesday weigh-in

1 more pound down...37 in total...this week was really hard...I'm not giving up..The stress is starting to get to me...but I try to throw my focus on something else, like my crochet project or cleaning.

Guess who's driving!!!

Darin is!!!!!! He got his permit last Tuesday, I let him drive from the Secretary of State office to a store and back home that day! He was so excited! Honestly, he did not scare me much at all! He is doing very well!!!

Holding his permit! he was so proud!

I'm so proud of him, and honestly I think he drives better than his father!!! lol

My Mommy turned 61 5-7-10

I invited my mom over for some yummy cake and ice cream for her birthday. She turned 61 years old!! I am so blessed to still have her in my life! She is my best friend! I can tell her anything! I know it was not easy for her in my younger years, but she put me straight and I think I have developed to be an upstanding citizen and mother!

The best Grandmother in the world!!!

I hope your every wish comes true!!!

You made it MOM!!