News about Amber and Me.

Amber had her ph probe done and the result turned out normal. I was devastated. I was hoping this would prove whatever was wrong with her. Apparently she does not have alot of acid in her vomit. So now he thinks she may have non-acid reflux and there is a test, similar to the ph probe, but unfortunately our hospitals don't perform this test. When he called me he said to me "I don't know what's wrong with your daughter, take her to children's"... Another devastating thing for me to hear. For him to just give up, because it's not an easy case!? So now i have to play with the insurance company to pay for me to go outside the network, because the St. John's doctor is referring it! Otherwise I will have one massive bill, I am sure. I know I will get them to, but if not I will pay if it will give me results!!

I cried the full day at work, so frustrated with it all. So lost, not knowing what to do now, so powerless. I have never felt so out of control, all I can do is take it one day at a time and hope that they find a cure! I find myself withdrawing into myself, not really wanting to talk about anything, forcing myself to get thru a day, i do it because i know i have to, but don't want to!! I know it's depression and it sucks!!! I force myself not to overeat, but believe me I could eat and eat and never get full. This is a true test!!


Here's a couple of pics with the ph probe test thing.
The little box had buttons that you had to push, one was for when she felt like she had to vomit or if she vomited. One button was for when ever she ate or drank and then another button to tell it when she was laying down or sitting up.

We decided to make the best out of a bad situation and color the tape. I tried to cheer her up :)

About the only good news that i have to share is that my doctor called me and was so surprised on my blood work...Everything was good. My A1C came down from a 10 to a 6 which is exactly where he wants me...and the one shocking news was that my cholesterol is down to 152 I have never had it under 200 before!!

My doctor said that if the report did not have my name on it, he would think it was another person...He told me whatever your doing keep it up and maybe we can get you off some of these meds!!! woohoo!!!

My husband also got a phone call from the doctor, he warned Frank that if he did not start watching his sugar that he will be put on pills!!! WHAT A SWITCH!!!!

Wednesday weigh-in

1 more pound down...37 in total...this week was really hard...I'm not giving up..The stress is starting to get to me...but I try to throw my focus on something else, like my crochet project or cleaning.

Guess who's driving!!!

Darin is!!!!!! He got his permit last Tuesday, I let him drive from the Secretary of State office to a store and back home that day! He was so excited! Honestly, he did not scare me much at all! He is doing very well!!!

Holding his permit! he was so proud!

I'm so proud of him, and honestly I think he drives better than his father!!! lol

My Mommy turned 61 5-7-10

I invited my mom over for some yummy cake and ice cream for her birthday. She turned 61 years old!! I am so blessed to still have her in my life! She is my best friend! I can tell her anything! I know it was not easy for her in my younger years, but she put me straight and I think I have developed to be an upstanding citizen and mother!

The best Grandmother in the world!!!

I hope your every wish comes true!!!

You made it MOM!!

Wednesday weigh-in

I lost 2 more pounds, totalling 36 pounds!! And that brings me to my first goal!!! To get my weight under 300 pounds...Today i weighed in at 299. That was hard to admit, but I am very proud of myself right now! Go Me!

Amber Update

Where to start....

Amber went for her gallbladder test and we just found out that was normal.

The headaches that she was having was caused by the medicine (prevacid) that she was taking. She started to break out with little blisters on her face, I looked up the allergic reactions to the drug and it explained the headaches, sore throat, blisters, I immediately told her no more and started feeding her benedryl.

She was off medication 24 hours and she started vomiting everything all night.

Made her take over the counter medication that worked as well as the prevacid without the allergic reactions.

Took her back to the doctor that informed us that the gallbladder is working fine. Prescribed her another drug. and basically said that there is not much more that he can do. But....she is going for a cat scan of her brain to rule out a brain tumor....he said that in his life time of being a doctor 4 people have come with GI trouble and found out it was a brain tumor causing this. If this test shows nothing then he will stick a tube up her nose and down to her stomach to measure the acid in her stomach....no medications....so another sleepless night she will have! If that shows anything....something about a surgery that they wrap something into her stomach lining. We haven't gotten that far, so he did not go to much into it...one thing at a time here..

The new drug he prescribed, she had a whole new reaction to! Her cheeks became blood red and the rest of her face was white as a ghost, and did not stop the vomiting at all!!! She was up till 4:30 in the morning vomiting. When i woke up to hear her still vomiting I told her to go and take the over the counter drug....she was finally able to go to sleep....I am thinking that i am going to just keep her on that! She isn't having any reactions to it, so screw the doctors and prescriptions!! I have about 4 pills that i paid for that I can't even give her!!!!

I finally wrote her teachers to let them in on what's been going on and to fill them in on the reason why she is missing so much school...reactions, sick, testing, that kind of thing.

I'll keep you updated as to what is going on...Basically no one has a clue!

Wednesday weigh-in

Finally after 2 weeks i lost 1 pound...down 34 pounds.. This is taking alot longer than i thought. I could be doing a bit more to help, but dang it, some days are harder than others. I think i am doing pretty good for someone that eats because they are stressed. With my daughter being so sick, with no apparent reasons that they can find yet. No, nothing to be stressed about!

Amber went to the gastro doctor on Friday and we set up an appt. for testing her gallbladder for this friday. I hope it shows something, the not knowing what is wrong is what is killing both of us. In the meantime the doctor prescribed 2 more medicines....when i got them and read the side effects I about blew a nut!!! One of them says "may cause tardive Dyskinesia" I'm not giving my daughter that and we still don't know what is really wrong with her are you crazy, she does not need twitches on top of everything else...Dumb doctor.....

Anyhoo I am still giving her the prevacid and it helps for the most part the puking is few and far between...but still there, enough to be a nuisance. The doctor told me that after this test, if it doesn't show anything, he is at a loss...Amber mentioned to him that she has started to have headaches and he says she may have a neurological thing called abdominal migraines ...same kind of symtoms, but says it only last like 1 to 3 days....this has been going on for over a month!!

That's pretty much where everything stands at the moment, hoping things start showing the light of day....

Later peeps!

if you want to know.

I've been on vacation so I was not able to weigh myself this past Wednesday. But today i had to stop by my job and pay on some bills and get some prescriptions so I stopped by my favorite scale. It showed that I had lost 3 pounds since being gone from work! 33 pounds gone!!! 2 more pounds and I hit a major milestone for myself!

Amber went to have the test with the scope down her throat on Wednesday. They did not find anything, no hernia, no ulcer's, but they did some biopsies to see if there is any kind of bug in her stomach. I don't think they are going to find anything. I am still thinking her gallbladder...every syptom fits...even the symptom that attacks happen more at night...she does puke more during the night...seems like more tests and it's going to take even longer!!! Poor girl...I'm just glad it's not as often.

She still is puking, but not really food or drink, more like a thick mucus, still belching like crazy, she still has pain on her right side. This sucks, the not knowing! If this was their kid they would be all over it!! The prevacid ain't doing anything much to help.

In other news I went out with a friend of mine to a couple places i have never been before. I went to Memphis Smoke which had a blues band playing, it's a type of bar and grill ...it was not all that bad. But realized another friend of ours had to be in the neighborhood and decided to drop by his stomping grounds and say hello. We went to Pronto's in Royal Oak, those that don't know it's a male gay bar. It was interesting, but all the guys made us feel comfortable. Had a few drinks with our buddy, we have known him for 30 years!! we were in 5th grade together. And yes we all believed he was gay even back then, but now he is totally open about it! Still love him just the same!! Wished my best friend could have been there to see him, we all hung out during high school together. pity.

Saturday we have plans to go to the Detroit Zoo, hope the weather is as good as they are predicting, it really has put a damper to my vacation.
anyhoo, other than that it's been housework and spending some much needed time to relax.
I bought some yarn to start a new project but I have been so busy that i have not even started it.

Later all, hope you have a great weekend!

We did go to the Detroit Institute of Arts on Wednesday after Amber's procedure. had a wonderful time. I had not been there since i was like 19 years old...I had forgotten how big and wonderful it was! I think my kids were bored! But it was something to do on such a rainy day.

HAPPY EASTER

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!

I'm having a great vacation so far! Yesterday was the trip to the doctor for Amber, He really thinks it's gerd but he is supposed to scope her throat and stomach on Wednesday. He gave her a better acid reducer called prevacid and gave her a diet that no teenager is going to follow. We will see what happens with that.

After seeing the doctor, it was a gorgeous day out and thought let's go to the zoo...Man, everyone had that idea...so we changed ours and went downtown to the Detroit Historical Museum, I have not been there that I could remember and I had a wonderful time...It was so interesting! Glad that plans did change..

I told Amber that we will do the zoo sometime this week when people are working, it was too crazy!! Plus we have plans to go and watch the new "Clash of the Titans" movie and maybe visit the Detroit Institute of Arts. Loving my vacation!!!

wednesday weigh-in

nothing gained and nothing lost...30 pounds still....I guess i should be thankful...the past couple weeks with amber has stressed me, which is one of my triggers...I have just been snacking on healthier things...



maybe next week?!

Easter basket

Cassie over at Southern Domestic Goddess passed this onto me....$10.00 goes to a kid just for blogging, who could pass that up?

Hershey's is partnering with bloggers to donate $5,000 to the Children's Miracle Network! They are hosting a blog hop and for each blog entry, Hershey's will donate $10 to the Children's Miracle Network.
Hershey’s Better Basket Blog Hop Rules
1. Copy and paste these rules to your blog post.
2. Create a blog post giving a virtual Easter Basket to another blogger — you can give as many Virtual Baskets as you want!
3. Link back to the person who gave you an Easter Basket.

4. Let each person you are giving a Virtual Basket know you have given them a Basket.
5. Leave your link at BetterBasket.info/BlogHop in the comment section. You can also find the official rules of this #betterbasket blog hop and more information about Better Basket with Hershey’s there.6. Hershey’s is donating $10 per blog participating in the Better Basket Blog Hop to Children’s Miracle Network (up to a total of $5000 by blog posts written by April 4, 2010).
7. Please note that only one blog post per blog url will count towards the donation.

I give this Easter basket to everyone that wants to participate and help children.

It's done!

In just under a month I finally finished Amber's afghan!!! She loves it!!! I'm pretty happy with how it turned out myself!! Now Darin says he wants one!!! Looks like I am going to be a busy beaver!

She looks so sickly....poor Amber!

Update on Amber.

Had amber in e.r. again last night...hoping for some miracle of finding out what is wrong with her...they did an ultrasound of her gallbladder, spline, liver, kidneys and found nothing! and we got a maybe it's gastritis. Just maybe I am going to go insane!! This has been horrible for Amber the last 2 weeks...and the worst thing is she has one more week before we can see a gastro doctor. Poor kid...I cry for her, I am losing sleep because I am worried and if I do get some sleep I have nightmares!
I hope she gets some relief soon!

On another note...I am almost finished with her afghan :)

Wednesday weigh-iin

Not a good week only 1 pound! But that equals 30 pounds gone!!! I know why only 1 pound because of girlie week, but i will take it...next week will be a whole other story.

Anyhoo check out what my mother made for me!!!! Who knew that when my mom volunteered to teach me to crochet that she would jump back into it with a vengeance. She is kicking out crochet projects left and right, If you want to see what she's made go and visit her site. I saw this shawl on a free pattern at JoAnn's and really like it, mom suprised me with it just the other day..

Meanwhile I am still working on my daughters afghan...Not my fault, I had to wait a couple days for some more yarn. I did manage to make another hat for a neighbor's grandson and I totally forgot to take a picture of it. I will get one. I also made a hat for my Aunt that turned out wonderful in a puff stitch pattern...I can't believe that i didn't get a pic of that either...I was kinda proud of that hat. Yeh, I know I suck!! Anyways I have one more skein of the color amber picked out and then border it with some dark blue and her afghan will be finished!!! I am kinda proud of this project, can't wait to show you all when I am done!

Now go over to my mom's site and check out the toys and stuff she has made!!

Amber

I got a call while at work, it was Amber's school. The lady on the phone said "Amber is really sick, she would like to go home". When Amber got home she called me to say that she got really dizzy and was kinda double visioned. I thought right away dehydration. Called my doctor and he told me to send her to a e.r. with a pediatrics in it. I left work, took her to the e.r. and now they think she has gerd and gave her some zantak and was told that if she is still throwing up to set up an appointment to see a gastro doctor. The not knowing is killing me. How did she all of a sudden get so sick? I hope that she will be ok soon.

WEDNESDAY WEIGH-IN

FINALLY after 2 weeks of nothing changed....I lost 3 pounds! 29 pounds gone!! go me!!

I took the bike for a descent bike ride....as much as I could stand yesterday and then went a little bit further. Today I did not go as far because the legs are hurting something awful and my butt feels like i have had anal...lol But I did about half of what i did yesterday so my body will get used to it.

Amber is in bad shape....6 straight days of vomiting everything that enters her mouth. I will give it until Friday and call her doctor and see what he wants me to do. You would never know that she was sick until she vomits!! Doctors are saying it's a stomach flu...but no fever, no nothing but vomiting! She did have diarrhea for a bit, but that has now stopped. I was checking out stomach flu on the internet and says that it could last 1-10 days...I have never in my life been sick with the flu for that long...Poor girl....I hope Frank and I don't get it!!! I will probably get it when i have my vacation...that would suck!!!

anyhoo, have a great week and if you got a chance send my daughter some healing prayers. I'm worried!

Amber's close call.

Amber had pain on her right lower side of her belly, she was complaining about it for about 5 days. Everyone was thinking she may have appendicitis. I took her to an urgent care facility thinking i will save some money. They tested her for bladder infection or uti's but came up negative. The doctor told me to take her to emergency because it could be her appendix. Went to emergency and about 6 hours later after all the tests were done, we found out everything is fine...She has some small cysts on her ovaries and maybe one popped and causing her some pain...She should be fine in a few more days.. We got home a little after midnight...I had worked 6:30 till 3 and was back at my work from 6pm untill midnight...I was dead by the time i got home.

Wednesday weigh-in

Wednesday weigh-in....nothing gained and nothing lost...it's a sad, sad week!!! I think i have hit a platoe(sp?) But on another note..starting Friday I will probably be bike riding for exercise! I told hubby to pull it out of the garage and pump up the tires...Amber and I are gonna ride! Hopefully the weather won't get crazy!

WHAT I AM WORKING ON NOW!

I'm working on a huge granny square afghan for my daughter Amber....She picked this color...it's a mixture of blue's and green's making a very interesting color blend...she likes it and so do I!

This is what i have been doing this week....

Wednesday weigh-in

Only 1 pound this week, total 26 pounds. I will take it, I know I was not perfect this week, I will do better hopefully by next Wednesday.