Still hoping for that job!

I went on that interview on Friday and on Monday my boss told me that the hospital called checking on my references. I asked her what they had asked and what she had said, but unfornately all she could tell them was that i was an employee there and that i have been with the company for 5 years and what position i held. I feel as long as you have something good to say about that person it should be said. But according to "blockbuster policy" that's all she was allowed to say. To say the least that discouraged me a bit, until i got a phone call from the hospital asking me for the phone number of my other employer(i did not have it at the time i went for my interview, and i could not remember a number from almost 6 years past). I talked to a St. John's worker and I told her that i was trying to get into the hospital and she said that you have to know someone to get in there. But after i told her that they were checking my references she said that it was looking good for me.

So it's sounds very promising and i am still praying that i get this job. Speaking of praying, A week ago i visited the kids Nanny and my long time friend that took me to church when i was a little girl, she invited us to church again. It's really close to my home and Amber really showed an interest to go(She has never been in a church before). Not that we don't believe in God or anything, just my crazy fast paced life and work schedule has just been hectic! But if Amber really wants to go, i will either go with her or drop her off on Sunday mornings. It will be good for her, plus she can spend time with the lady that raised her for almost 3 years. On Sunday Amber and I went to church, her for the first time in her life and for me it has been 13 years since i went to some kind of service. The last was my wedding day.

A blast from the past came into me. People that i had changed diapers on, were there with their babies. It was great, many people remembered me, and welcomed me back. The preacher that married Frank and I was glad to see me and see my child, I really wish they could have seen my husband and my son. I am not going to force them to go, but if they ever want to, we will go as a family.

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My poor dog, she went to the vets to get all the stitches and staples taken out and ended up with fresh staples on the side and was told to wait another week. We took her all the way to my mothers house and as soon as she got out of the car i noticed that her leg did not look right. Her incision on her leg had popped open and i could see her leg bone and muscles and everything. GROSS! I had to put her back in the car and drive all the way back for them to re-staple her leg. So now she has another 2 weeks of antibiotics and and has to go back and get them removed. She has started to lick on them and even removed a few, so i went and got some self adhesive tape to wrap around the sores so that she don't pull the rest out.

Well my kid is bothering me to get off so he can get on here and play a game...
take care all
and if you can, a small prayer for me to get that job. Thanks

I want to work :)

I went on both interviews last week and i am hopeful on either one of them to offer me a job. The hospital job promises more hours than the kroger job. I really need for my life to get on a better track. I really hate the questions that they ask at an interview. I get so nervous that i am not sure exactly what i am saying, after all it's been 15 years since i hade to have an actual interview. But after the interview i think of better answers than what i had given...I wish you get to look at the questions before the interview so you can at least sound smart on them.
(insert prayers for the hospital job here)

The past week my sister and I devoted alot of time over my mother and father's house trying to get her house back to normal. We painted her humongous house, her bedroom, living room, the huge rec room and a front bedroom. The construction company painted her new addition bedroom and her HUGE kitchen/dining room. They will also be painting her bathroom when they finish that project. I can't wait to see the finished product, trim sticks, curtains, floors, carpenting. God it's going to look gorgeous in there.

Mini seems to be doing alot better, she goes to the vet on Thursday to have all her stitches and staples removed.
take care all....i am tired, i have been up early everyday for the past week.

Updates

Where do i wanna start.

Amber is doing better...I still sleep with the phones nearby in my bedroom. I monitor my minutes on the phone all the time. So far, so good.

Last week the kids decided that they wanted to switch their bedrooms around. I like the way Amber has her set up, it actually looks like their is some room in there now. Darin's room is just flipped. He has the smallest bedroom and Frankly unless i get him a smaller stand up dresser there isn't much else you can do. After they moved their rooms i had them go thru their dressers for clothes that no longer fit or clothes they will not wear. So now i have a better idea of what they need for school clothes.

I started some shopping for clothes this week. I got them shoes for school, Amber at 11 is wearing a size 9,and my son freaked me out! My 12 year old boy is in a size 12 shoe!!!!!!! He will never sink in those boats!!! lol I got some basic essentials, socks, bras, underwear. Looks like Amber is not in bad shape at all just needs a few new things to be a little different for school, and Darin needs pants! He is sporting a size 40 waist! Thank god he grew upward, otherwise he would look like a weeble wobble..lol He's hovering over me now, he makes fun of me for being so short..(Jerk).

Ok..now some hopeful news. As you all know i have been looking for another job since mine has knocked me all the way down to 18 and 20 hours. I have been looking for what seems like a year. All of a sudden i have 2 interviews this week! One for Kroger's on Tuesday and on Friday i have an interview to work in a hospital! I hope that one of them will offer me a job. I really want the hospital job, but at this point anything is in there.

I had to take my big dog Mini to the vets on Friday and she had to have surgery on some masses. I thought that she had 2 relatives big masses but when the doctor took a look at her there was 5 in total. They were all removed, she is in alot of pain and she has some good meds in her. She takes her pain pills and if you have never seen a dog high before, it's the most hilarious thing i have seen in awhile. Her eyes are small slits when she looks at you and she gets confused of where she wants to be. I feel bad for her....I feel bad for me also because that was not another expense that i needed...but pets are like family right? And she has given us 11 wonderful years. They did some test to see if it may be cancer and from what they could see she was cancer free. They sent off some specimens and i won't know for certain until next week...but what from what they did do it was safe to say she was safe.

I finally got Frank's car hooked up with a hitch so that he can take his boat out. What good is having a boat when it's only decorating your backyard, right?
He's so excited about being able to finally use his boat.

Well it's getting late and i have been up early everyday.
take care all

DEPRESSION IS SO DEPRESSING!

What is there to write about? Lately all i can write about is my deep depression. In the last few days i have cried all i can cry, i have fried my brains in thinking on how i went wrong. But it's not my wrong.

Money seems to be the issue, of course that is half of Michigan these days. I was 2 mortgage payments behind and thought i could deal with it. The thing that put me right over the edge was my daughter. My lovely 11 year old daughter, threw in a bill that no one should have to deal with. I'm just going to say it was $700.00 dollars and a cell phone bill. You can piece the rest.

I don't understand why, she don't understand how much i give up for my kids. I don't get my much needed pills and insulin, because i feel feeding the kids should come first! I don't get new clothes, because i don't need to impress anyone and the kids need it more than i. The kids have more than i ever had at their age. I never had a t.v. with cable in my room. And guess what...I still don't! I had a small boom box in my bedroom...my kids have stereo systems with a 5 disc cd changer. I never had game systems....my kids have nds's, ps2's, gameboy advance's...

I hate that i feel this way...i can't trust her and i really hate that feeling! I have yelled, i have cried, i have talked to her and i have almost come close to really physically hurting her. I have punished her, she is not allowed to have any friends over all summer, she is not to be near a phone at all! ABSOLUTELY no computer. I've threatened that i would send her away.

I've prayed for guidance, patience a second job. I am starting to face that i may have to go back to work for Mcdonald's, it will give me the hours that i want to work.

just a rough time, and thought if i wrote it down i might feel better. I just want to know when life will be worth living for me?!

TRIP

We did get to go up north to visit my friend. We got a little bit of a late start and then got stuck in some traffic for about 20 minutes. We arrived around 10:30 pm, so all we were able to do was play some cards and chat. The kids talked and talked to each other and played games. Frank and I got kinda tired so we went to sleep around 2:30 am, the kids stayed up all night! Frank woke up around 6:30 am and thought it was a good idea to wake me up that early. Well then everyone woke up, and it was off to visit her little zoo and feed all the animals. There was more animals than i thought she had. What i could not believe is that she had some goats that just wondered the property without running away!

Frank had planned on going fishing on Saturday but some clouds came in and rained on his excitement. So when the rain stopped we took a walk up a hill to a small cemetary and walked and looked at the old stones up there. There was a lady that had about 12 children that all died at birth or only lived a few days, the oldest was about a month old. Makes you wonder what happened! I know i would have given up long ago. I saw a stone that i know if anyone buries me better get! It was heart shaped!

After our walk and playing with the animals Barb cooked up some ribs from her freshly slaughtered hog. They were pretty good, Frank was going crazy over them. Barb had some errands to run and when we got back we made smores on the deck in back of her house. Yummy Yummy,

Saturday night we slept in her camper in her drive way. It got really cold outside! I love the cold, but could have used one more blanket..lol But at least we had more sleep than the night before.

Sunday morning i was woke up to my friend jumping around in the camper saying it's time to go canoeing! Mind you that i have never been on a canoeing trip in my life. But for Frank, and Barb's sake i was willing to try. We drove about 45 minutes to travel down Rifle River. You pay for your canoe and they drive you 26 mile down the road and drop you off and you have to canoe back to where you paid for the canoe.

Yep, my fat butt paddle 26 miles of river. Let me tell you that the first hour and a half i was ready to shove a paddle up Frank's butt! He can't steer a canoe if his life depended on it. We kept getting stuck in rocks and hitting everything that was in the river. At one point we actually hit a rock head on and i ended up pushing the sides of my knees so hard into the canoe that they are very badly bruised! After about a hour and a half that's when we flipped our canoe. That's when i decided enough is enough and i tried to steer. Guess what! Things went a whole lot better, the next 5 hours was beautiful, proving yet again that my husband can't drive.lol
I can tell you tho that my body feels every bit of pain from my knees and feet to my shoulders from paddling.

All and all i went from saying "I will never do this again in my life" to "I will do it again as long as i steer and have the proper shoes". My feet were taking a beating from the rocks in the river. Also i will need a hat! The top of my head is on fire! I put sun screen all over my face so that i would not look like a radish when i was done. OH MY GOD tho, you should see Frank's legs! They have never seen the light of day, (he rarely wears shorts, only to swim in) he is fried! I've had to hear him whine about his legs for a few days now. Poor guy, next time he will put sun screen on them..lol.

It was fun like i said after i took over. Totally out of character for me, and a great new adventure...At least i know i can do it.
So after our great trip we went back to the house to check on the kids, and decided that the grown ups would go out to dinner. We went to a very country looking place called "Gee's", there was stuffed dead animals everywhere. But they served some very nice food. The men shared a special pizza and i tried a chicken sandwich. After dinner it was really late, and ended up packing up and leaving for home around 8:30 pm. We had to stop real quick and pick up the kids something to eat and off we went on the way home.

As soon as we got close to home i had to stop for some gas and ended up in traffic again because apparently Troy was just letting out after finishing their fireworks. So after we arrived home around midnight, i unpacked, cleaned up the mess in the car, changed the turtle filter, got a load of clothes in the washing machine, i finally passed out around 2:30 in the morning.

When i woke up i was in so much pain that i could barely walk. My knees, my shoulders, everything hurt! I managed not to baby the pain and finished laundry and cleaned up my house and cooked dinner, then going to work.

Well that was my trip in a nutshell.
I hope that everyone had a great 4th of July. Mine was great, I finally got to sleep in and then my neighbor invited us for a barbeque. Any day i don't have to cook is great!
Take care

SUMMER HAPPENINGS

My son has been asking me to bring him to the mall every week to get the next addition of the Shaman King books that he is reading. With his allowance and money that he makes working with his grandpa he has almost all of them. I'm glad that he has an interest in any kind of reading during the summer vacation.

My daughter visits the "cool" Hot Topics store at the mall. She saw a pair of pants with all the zippers and chains and many pockets, that she just had to have them! Better yet they were on sale. She had to earn the money for them! Grandpa gave her the money to get them now but she owes jobs to work off the money. She already started by cleaning grandma's and grandpa's cars and what ever else they wanted done. She still owes him a few more jobs but she is in her glory that she got some really cool pants.

Since school let out my dauhter has virtually had someone at our house spending the night or she has spent the night away from home. I like most of her friends, they are pretty quiet, nice, polite. Amber tho has been in quite of bit of trouble with the phone, typical teenage crap. I was not expecting that yet.

My son is just content with going outside with the boys and playing on his scooter or "razor". He never asks anyone to spend the night or he never asks to stay with others, which is nice because Amber does it enough for the both of them.


Today was a really hot day! My house is really nice with the central air but when i went to work today I found out that all of our air conditioning was broken! HOT!
I was miserable the whole night! Made worse with customers asking a dumb question. "Your air conditioner not working?" DUH! Sometimes we said "NO, we like it like this!" or we would say "We watched Inconvenient Truth and We are doing our part for global warming" if it was just a few customers asking it would not have made me so mad. But it was every single customer that had to say something about it! Our store manager was awesome tho....She went and bought bottled water and gatorade for us to drink for free.

I have decided that I am going to visit my friend up North in Lupton. It will merely cost me gas money for this trip. The kids will have fun playing with the animals. Barb had gotten several new additions to her zoo since the last time we were there. The kids are dying to see the horses! They will have fun feeding those in the morning! Hopefully it won't rain the whole trip this time. It put a damper on our fun the last time we went there. I really miss her.
Well I'm getting tired.

SCHOOL IS OVER!

Today was the last day of school for my kids. Amber's school had a very sweet graduation party. Amber will be in middle school with her brother next year. She will miss her teacher Mr. Turner, after all she had him 2 years in a row. I think he really liked Amber, he came to me after the party and told me that he only gave 3 citizenship awards out and Amber was the first to get it.

Most of Ambers teachers have discribed Amber as being motherly in the class rooms. I see it all the time myself. But if i ask her to do something, you would think all hell broke loose.

Report cards were great! Darin got all A's and B's and Amber got the triple combo's, A's, B's, and C's. All that i can ask for and more! Great job to them, and now they can rest their heads for the summer.

Life has been pretty routine around here. All i do is look for jobs and clean my house. Hopefully something will swing my way. There is so much that i want to do, but money is always the issue.

DOUBLE BIRTHDAY!!!!

TODAY IS MY FATHERS BIRTHDAY AND MINE
THIS IS MINE , i'M 37 AND MY DAD IS 60!!!!!!

In 1970 (the year you were born)

Richard Nixon is president of the US A federal jury finds the "Chicago 7" innocent of conspiring to incite riots during the 1968 Democratic National Convention The lunar spacecraft Apollo 13 splashes down in the Pacific after near catastrophe The first Earth Day is marked by millions of Americans participating in anti-pollution demonstrations At Kent State University, National Guardsmen fire into a crowd killing four student antiwar demonstrators A powerful earthquake claims 50,000 lives in Peru 18 year olds are given the right to vote in federal elections Tidal wave driven by cyclone from Bay of Bengal hits East Pakistan, killing hundreds of thousands An anti-war rally is held at Valley Forge, Pennsylvania, attended by John Kerry, Jane Fonda and Donald Sutherland Queen Latifah, Mariah Carey, Andre Agassi, Uma Thurman, Jennifer Lopez, and Matt Damon are born Baltimore Orioles win the World Series Kansas City Chiefs win Superbowl IV Boston Bruins win the Stanley Cup Tearjerker Love Story is the top grossing film I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou is published "The Long and Winding Road" becomes the Beatles' last Number 1 song

What Happened the Year You Were Born

THIS IS MY DAD'S

In 1947 (the year you were born)

Harry Truman is president of the US Jackie Robinson breaks the color barrier in baseball by joining the Brooklyn Dodgers Britain grants independence to India and Pakistan The Truman Doctrine is formulated to aid Greece and Turkey against Communist rebels and Soviet expansionism The House UnAmerican Activities Committee begins hearings into alleged communist influence in Hollywood The CIA is established David Bowie, Dr. Laura Schlessinger, Elton John, David Letterman, and Stephen King New York Yankees win the World Series Chicago Cardinals win the NFL championship Toronto Maple Leafs win the Stanley Cup The Diary of Anne Frank is published Jack Kerouac makes the journey which he will later chronicle in his book On the Road There are 14,000 television sets in use in the United States

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

MY BOY!

My boy is the one with the brown long sleeve shirt.

I couldn't be prouder!!!! My boy was on the honor roll all year! He recieved a certificate for his hard work from the principal, he got a bronze academic medal, and even got a school letter. I thought they gave letters out for sports, but apparently you get one for academic excellence.

He is such a good boy and deserves his moment in the spotlight.

My mohter and father came to see their grandson get his awards. From what my mom told me my father got a little misty watching his grandson get his awards. I think he misses the fact that he was not able to do this kind of stuff when his own kids were growing up, not that he didn't want to, but because he was such a hard worker and would be very tired when he got home. It was left to mom to be our total support. I love them both!

WAY TO GO DARIN!!!! LOVE YA!

Pish-Posh

I hope everyone had a wonderful Mother's Day! Mine was pretty good even tho i worked. My son Darin took his money from his allowance and purchased me a couple of roses from 7/11. I thought that was the nicest thing that he could do for me. My daughter Amber picked some lilac's from my mothers tree in the backyard and put them in a plastic cup and gave them to me. When she gave them to me she said "I know you like these flowers mommy". I really do love those flowers, they make everything smell so nice. My living room smelled like lilacs for days.
Since I had to work on Mother's Day my dad treated the whole family to a family picnic at our favorite state park. You can read about it here. My mom has posted pictures of the picnic on her site.
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The kids are going on so many field trips in this last month it's amazing. Darin came home one day with 3 field trips totally $47.00 dollars. Ouch! Amber had 4 field trips that did not cost me a dime?! I like those field trips..lol

Amber had a science fair at her school, she chose to do an experiment. Her experiment delt with making a rainbow in a glass. She had to mix certain amounts of sugar with water and die. They had a special night for parents to come and see all the projects. There was alot of talented kids, I was impressed with the batteries and light bulb experiment. Amber got a ribbon for participating which was nice, we could have done better but my heart was not into helping with such a project.
Darin has his honor's night on Monday. I am so hoping that he gets some type of plaque for being on the honor roll for all 4 semesters. He's excited about practicing how to walk and accept his honor's.
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Work for me has been a roller coaster. I found out on Monday that i will be only working 3 days a week. Luckily a lady that works for us is sharing some of her hours with me. But that's not going to last. I really have to find a part time job somewhere to make up the difference. It's not easy! I'm glad that the kids are old enough to be left alone for an hour if i need them to.

Frank still enjoys his job! He just had the day off for his birthday paid. Not bad for just starting. What i love is that its 40 hours! He's mostly driving and delivering cleaning supplies and packaging products to different companies. If he's not doing that he's cleaning up the warehouse and helping carrying products for the customers.
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ANOTHER BIRTHDAY

On Tuesday it's my husbands birthday! He will be 41 years old, but if you ask him he says he's 29..lol Although if you look at his hair you would guess him to be in his 60's. He's been grey headed for a very long time. He says it started when he was 18. When i met him when he was 26 he had salt and pepper hair which is what attracted me to him. Now it's a blanket of white on top. I Love Him very much...HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY!

In 1966 (the year you were born)

Lyndon B. Johnson is president of the US As part of nationwide protest against the Vietnam War, demonstrations are staged all over the US In Miranda vs. Arizona, the Supreme Court rules that criminal suspects must be apprised of their rights before interrogation US planes begin bombing of the Hanoi area of North Vietnam Controversial American comedian Lenny Bruce is found dead of a drug overdose in his home John Lennon says, "We are more popular than Jesus" sparking controversy in the US The first black Senator is elected to the United States Senate Cindy Crawford, Janet Jackson, Mike Tyson, Halle Berry, Adam Sandler, and Kiefer Sutherland are born Baltimore Orioles win the World Series Green Bay Packers win the NFL championship Montreal Canadiens win the Stanley Cup The Good, the Bad and the Ugly is the top grossing film Valley of the Dolls by Jacqueline Susann is published Pet Sounds by The Beach Boys and Sounds of Silence by Simon and Garfunkel are released Star Trek and The Newlywed Game premiere

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY 58TH BIRTHDAY MOMMIE

YOU MADE IT! I LOVE YOU!

In 1949 (the year you were born)

Harry Truman is president of the US Treaty signed by US, Canada and other countries establishes the North Atlantic Treaty Organization (NATO) German Federal Republic (West Germany) is established A communist government is established in mainland China John Belushi, Erik Estrada, and Bruce Springsteen are born New York Yankees win the World Series Philadelphia Eagles win the NFL Championship Toronto Maple Leafs win the Stanley Cup The Second Sex by Simone de Behavior is published

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

Life

There are some days that i have so much to do that i'm never bored. Lately my dad has been out of work, so there is no need for me to be over there everyday. I had been doing it for so long that i really don't know what to do with myself. I have been trying to find a part time job to help with the boredom, but with no success. I am only able to work Monday thru Friday during the day there are not many jobs out there for that. I have to leave my weekends open for my priority job.

Darin came back from his trip on Friday around 1 in the morning. Poor boy was so tired from going to bed late and waking up at the butt crack of dawn every morning that he kinda passed out. But to be woke up at 5 in the morning to help take the dogs to the shot fair and get their yearly shots. He slept in the car while we waited in line. The poor dogs were sore for 3 days, the first 2 they would not walk, go outside to use the bathroom, eat or anything. They are doing much better now.

He told us that there was alot to see. He complained of his legs hurting from walking too much. His favorites were the changing of the guard and how they walked perfectly at the Arlington cemetary. He also loved the Lincoln statue. He said he also got to play a soldier at Gettysburg and recreate how they charged during the war. He said the boys took turns on the beds at the hotel. One slept on a couch, another slept on the floor and then they switched each day. All and all i think he enjoyed himself and it was worth the money. He came home with 3 disposable camera's for me to develop, i'm anxious to see what pictures he took.

While he was gone we took Amber to the Warren Community pool, which turned out kinda fun. I had to stop at the Salvation Army to see if i could find a bathing suit for her. I did find a beautiful one, a brand new one, but when she tried it on she could not get it past her "J-LO" butt. So before the pool i took her with me for sizing and can you believe the bathing suit that i had looked at before and thought "that looks too big for her" actually was the one that was a perfect fit! I got really lucky that this bathing suit had never been worn also. Sometimes you really can find some good stuff for cheap there. Anyways we went to the pool and because they were having a excercise classs at the time we snuck her in the hot tub with us. We enjoyed ourselves for a little while there.

My doctor was kind enough to help me with some of my pills until my husband's insurance kicks in. That was a relieve on my part, because alot of my pills without insurance are 100.00 to 200.00 dollars a piece.

Well i have to get ready to pick up my kids, cook dinner, homework and off to work i go.

Need some prayers

My nephew is very sick, and no one knows what is wrong with him. He's lost alot of weight, and his throat hurts. My mom has wrote all about it here . I hope that they can figure out what's wrong and make him feel better soon. I Love You Matthew, Love Aunt Caroline.

GOING CRAZY

HELP! lol

Kids are out for the week and the fights have only just begun. Trying to keep the blood splatter to a minimum. Actually they have been pretty good, they aren't fighting for the computer because they know if they do they won't be aloud on it at all. So 1 hour intervals is how they have been working it out. If it was not so cold outside i would kick the kids outdoors.

Friday i have to go shopping for Darin's treats and stuff for his trip on Tuesday. I'm so excited for him. He is going to see stuff that i have not yet been able to see.

My Easter was alright I worked all day, I really hate when customers act like they feel bad that your working. If you really felt bad, you wouldn't come in. Oh well, the thing is it was only at regular pay, you would think that they would pay time and a half. After work i was invited by my friendly neighbors across the street for a nice ham and potatoes dinner, because they knew my husband and kids went out with my family out to eat. That was sweet of them.

The kids seemed to be happy with what they got. Amber was really excited about getting her "Now 24" cd She is so into music. She constantly has her headphones on or her radio or something. She can name most of the singers she hears on the radio and song titles. Maybe if something in the animal field does not work out for her maybe a career in radio is something she can fall back on.

Darin got some shorts, and it looks like we picked the right size for guessing. Let me just say he's a BIG boy! Can you believe that he is forming a mustache on his lip? He will be 13 on August 16th. He's 5'5 1/2" tall ...that's 1 1/2 inches taller than me!!!!! Frank is only like 5'7", it won't be long before he's looking down at both of us. lol I just remind him that no matter how big he gets I will still knock him down a few pegs if i need to.

Well...i better get off here and let one of the kids on here, my hour is almost up...lol..

HAPPY EASTER

I hope that everyone has a wonderful Easter!

I will be working, this is really sad! For those that don't have to work on Easter be nice to the one's that do have to work. Be a little more patient because they are probably working understaffed, like me that past 2 days. I know i would like to be home with family, but we all can't have cake jobs.

My kids are excited about getting their baskets....i got a small amount of candy and a couple of summer outfits a piece. If i had more money i would have gotten a couple of cd's or games, but you can only do so much.
Clothes seemed more important to me.

Have a great day!

MY WEIRD DREAMS

In one weeks time i have 2 very strange dreams and they are driving me crazy just to think of them.
Dream 1
It's the day of my son's trip and everyone slept in till 8...i know the time because in my dream i woke up and look and start screaming "were late". So i start scrambling around the house to pack him up look up the trip route and i am bound and determined to get him wherever they are so that he can finish his trip. What really bothered me was that i actually woke up very panicked!


Dream 2
I am back to working at McDonald's and we are finishing cleaning up and we are closing. I go lock one of the doors and just as i come back in.... there are customers in the store and my crew are serving them! I politely get these people to leave and i lock the door again. I turn around and all of sudden the customers are in my lobby again. I push these people back out and lock the door ...this time i lock the door and push on it and it opens....again...i lock the door and push on it and it opens again...i do this a few times and realize that something is loose on the door and i tighten it and it finally locks. I turn around and my lobby is full of customers and the crew are serving them...Now i am mad...i look at my watch and notice that i have to be back at work in about 4 hours and i can't keep the people from coming in. I walk over to an area in the lobby and see like a community of senior citizens and i am asking them to leave that i was trying to lock up the store to go home and no one is listening...it's like i am not even there. But the urgency to get these people to get out is driving me batty...... I wake up feeling panicked and pissed off.

Ok...i'm editing this because last night i had another weird dream
Dream 3

I'm only writing it down because all 3 dreams are so vivid and maybe somewhere down the line they may mean something to me.
In this dream I am at the hospital and i just had a baby...don't know what it is but does not seem to be a major part of the dream. But while my husband is holding the baby and my kids are playing with the baby, I am on the other hand going crazy because one of the nurses just told me that they are not releasing me for at least a month. No one wants to tell me why i can't go home. I'm crying and screaming that i want to talk to the doctor to find out why. Frank tells me in his sweet voice don't worry i'm sure thier is a good reason. But i am still going frantic, saying "how can you be so calm? My insurance only covers up to 10,000 in hospital stays" and i also say " just having that baby took 10,000" " I have to get back to work, we are going to lose everything" . I stand in the hallway looking and screaming "where is the f**king doctor" every nurse is avoiding my questions. They just say " we are trying to find him and he will be happy to tell you what's going on". The whole dream is of me screaming and crying " why do i have to stay a month?"
These are the weirdest dreams and the fact that i keep remembering them and waking up panicked is really driving me insane.
The thing that all these dreams have in common is i am well aware of a time thing going on.
In the first dream it's about being 2 hours late...the second dream is about i only have 4 hours and the 3rd dream has to do about a month...they all seem really important in every dream.
Am i insane? Can anyone make any sense out of it?

My husband says that i have some weird dreams. I agree...but the fact that i can't get over them is what is bothering me.
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Kids came home with really good report cards! Darin again came home with A's and B's, I am so proud. Even the Math grade that was at a C 5 weeks ago he actually got back up to a B.....My little Honor Roll boy :)

Amber came home with all B's and C's ...more B's than C's. She was really struggling with math this semester. But i am really proud that she is doing the best that she can.
Amber had to sign up for this science fair. She has to put it all on a presentation board and work and experiment and everything. We chose to do the rainbow in a glass, using sugar, dye, and water. should be interesting. Projects, Projects, and Projects....
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I had a grocery store call me and ask if the hours i listed on my application were the only hours i could work. I told her that i had another job and that i could only work during the day while the kids were at school. So that blew that.
But in the same instance i was thinking "yeh, otherwise i would have put open availibility or negotiable". I guess i was just discouraged.
Well i'm off to bed now...

Stuff

Frank is still doing wonderful on his new job. He looks forward to the next day now.

My job on the other hand is cutting my hours down again. Also when i picked up my last prescriptions i found out that i have already maxed out my yearly allowance for prescription drugs. Not good when they cost me $300.00. Frank's insurance i still have to wait till he has 60 days in. I will have to see if my doctor has any samples left to tied me over. I doubt it because i was informed not too long ago that they will no longer carry samples as of last January. Or i will have to pick which pills are the most important and wait till the insurance kicks in.

My son is going on his Washington trip in April, he is looking forward to it. We got a list of the things that he will be doing while gone.
DAY 1
cleveland zoo& rain forest
and a swim at aquatic center

DAY 2
Annapolis Naval Academy
Museums on the mall
Smithsonian air and space museum
Smithsonian natural history museum
Smithsonian African art
WWII Memorial
Jefferson Memorial

DAY 3
Goup Photo at U.S. Capitol
White House Photo Stop
Daniel's story at Holocaust Museum
Arlington Cemetery Walking Tour
Marine Memorial (Iwa Jima)
Illuminated Tour of MemorialsVietnam/Lincoln/Korean/Einstein

Day 4
Gettysburg Battlefield Tour
and return home by midnight

That's really alot for just a few days. But i am sure that he will have alot to talk about when he gets home.

NEW MAN

Frank is a new man now that he has a much better job than he had. On Wednesday I decided that before the bed arrives on Friday I would put up the new ceiling fan for the bedroom that i purchased almost a year ago. Well i got the old one down with no problem, but when Frank got home i asked him to help me put up the new one(two hands are better than one)....Now if you know Frank and I, you would know that any sort of assembling of anything would cause us to be cursing at eachother and things getting thrown. Not this time folks! We did it without any broken bones, blood, or using the lords name in vain. This is a good sign Frank is in a better place.

My poor Darin is very sick! He woke up this morning saying his throat was hurting him a bit. I gave him some motrin, but something told me to make a doctors appointment and then go get him out of school. Around 9:00 a.m. i called the doctor and the earliest i could get was 2:00 pm. I ended up getting a phone call at 12:30 pm from Darin's school saying that he really wasn't feeling good and asked to come home. I informed the Nurse that i was going to be getting him in a half hour and taking him to the doctors anyway i would be right up.

When i got him in the car i felt his forehead and sure enough he was getting hot! Took him to the doctor and the doctor said he has an infection in his throat. Poor little guy, well not very little, i was just informed that my son is 1 1/2 inches talling than me at the age of 12! He has antibiotics and i had to go buy him some adult tylenol in the liquid form for the fever. He don't like swallowing pills. My daughter has no problem with pills, but Darin hates to even try.

Amber came home yesterday with her shoe torn apart, so that was a trip to payless shoe store to get her a new pair. OMG, the girl is wearing a size 9 shoe now! She's 11 years old! While we were there she picked out the most ugliest sneakers, folks they are green and white, we are talking MICHIGAN STATE (the football team) green and white. I tried to talk her out of them but she just kept saying that she really liked them. Well to avoid a scene and to avoid drama queen in action she got her wish. I really should be happy because they only cost me 10 dollars but GREEN is just not a color on my top ten list.

Tomorrow i may be making some cookies since my local store has all kinds baking ingredients on sale. I have a couple of cookies that i want to try out.
G'night all

FINALLY!

I thought i would never get back online again! The reason for no posts or comments or anything was that i purchased a brand new computer and my aol was not compatible with my new vista, so i decided to go the cable direction, but i had to wait 2 weeks. I got a really great deal putting my internet, phone and cable on one bill. I'm still trying to figure things out and get all my blog buddies in my favorites and letting people know of my new email address.

Lots have gone on since i last posted. Frank was really depressed, he would call into work (not helping with the situation that we are in) because he hated his job soooo much. He also would fly off the handle with the kids and me for minor little things. I tell ya, he's lucky i love him, or else i would have had to put a hurtin on him..lol
Well i have great news! Frank has got himself a new job!!!!!!!! More money, benefits, vacation time, holidays off, he even gets his birthday off with pay. He's a new man! He started on Monday and he worked today and he says that he LOVES it!!!!! His job is similar to the job he has had back when he was delivering wood floors. He is a warehouse/driver, only this time it's dealing with cleaning products and packaging supplies. Him and his boss seem to be getting along very well from the conversations that Frank has been telling me, and he also bought Frank lunch today. I tell ya, from one extreme to another.

Now some bad news.....Amber quit her dance class. Her teacher Miss Alexis got a scolarship and will be performing with David Bowey(i know i spelt that wrong but i can't think how to spell it right). Anyways...We went to the class with the new teacher, and found out thier are 2 teachers and neither one had a clue what to do with these girls. With competition in just a few short weeks i did not think that it would be the greatest idea to keep her dance class. The thing is she said she did not want to go back before i could say anything. Poor Amber...i told her that i would check around for other dance classes.

So i got a new computer with a printer, now i don't have to run to my mother when i need something printed out. And on Friday i have a new bed being delivered, for the first time in a very, very, very long time i will have a headboard and a footboard. It's been about 6 years that my bed has been laying on the floor in my bed room. Good ole income tax returns :) Although this years tax return was a disappointment...but at least it covered a computer and a bed and that's what i was hoping for.

Ok, now i am getting tired ...so i think i will get some Z's :)

If you want to read, read

Do you find yourself comprehending more now as an adult then when you were a child? I mean I help my kids with their homework and literally i have to go on the internet to help them. I told my mom the other day that if i had the internet back then i would have been a straight A student. My daughter brought home what i hated the most when i was a child, math homework, especially fractions! She had to make a proper fraction to an improper fraction. 'Wha'? I really, really hated fractions when i was a kid. So i hopped online found out how to do it and learned how to do it in about 5 minutes and said to myself that wasnt' hard! Why did i have such a hard time back then? I guess my teachers had to do everything in a round about matter, rather then show the very easy way. I do enjoy helping them with their homework, I learn new things everyday. Plus it feels like quality time together.

I already told you about Amber being on the honor roll for the second time this year.
My son was on the honor roll for the second time also! All A's and one B! Go Darin! It's your birthday! He's so smart. He's also developing the funniest personality. He can make me laugh even when i am so mad that i can spit nails at him. I looked at him the other day and i am starting to see the beginnings of a mustache! My baby is growing up! Which means i am growing old. :(

When i was a kid it felt like adulthood would never get here and now that i have kids it feels like their adulthood is coming faster than mine was. Does that make sense?
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I had to take Frank to the doctors on Thursday. He hurt his back at work and he had to get a shot and some muscle relaxers and rest this weekend. It's going to hurt because he took 2 days off, but if your in pain, i guess you can't do much else.

I wish i could say things were going good for us right now. What' s really wrong is our job environments. We both are not happy, I could be if every one was doing their job instead of me feeling like i am the only one doing anything around there. I come home feeling like i got in a fight with Mike Tyson, and so tired i can barely walk in the door. I used to LOVE my job, now i have fears of at any moment they will take away my hours. I hate that i feel like i have so much to accomplish on my shifts because "I" know that one of the other managers is not going to do a f***in thing on his shift! And gets paid for it! One manager, he is a sweetheart of a guy, but boy is he lazzzzzzzzzzzzy! I leave him notes of what needs to get done and he just ignores them. Of course he is higher ranking then me so he can do that. The last note that he ignored i asked him about and he simply stated " I didn't feel like doing it" , so my question is when he leaves me a note about something and i say the same thing is that going to jive in my favor?
Can you feel the venting? In all honesty i kinda feel better now that i have wrote it down.
Let's hope that it won't spill out at the meeting tomorrow because i'm still feeling hostel about it.

Frank....his job sucks, sucks, sucks. He is filthy from head to toe when he gets home. His job has no benefits...no paid vacations, he gets paid very little. You never know if your gonna get at least 40 hours. Can you believe that even his pay checks have bounced?! One time i put a check in my checking account and a week later i found out that i had accumulated 365 dollars in overdraft fees! Thank god(but with alot of hostility) they paid for those. But from now on my husband cashes his check at the store or their bank. I'm not going thru all that again. Can you believe that?

Well i think i have done enough bitching for one night..

Oh and if ya gotta a second, a little prayer that Frank can find a better job would be nice:) I can manage for the moment...But he needs a ego boost right now. :)

Where does the time go?

Time has just flown by! One minute i was celebrating the coming of the new year and now the first month of the year is already gone!

Is anyone seeing a better year yet? We have already hit some bumps in the road of 2007. A major one is taxes. I owe the state for the first time in my life a great deal. All because cashing in Frank's 401k didn't take any state tax out. Also Unemployment is investigating a couple of weeks of checks, all because the company wrote the wrong things on their paper. I know i am being very vague, all because it's all personal, but i wanted to share the stress that i am under.

Just got Amber's report card and she is on the honor roll for the second time this year, she says that if she does it for a third time she will be invited to a pizza party! I haven't got Darin's report card yet, I will be getting that tomorrow. I am not worried but he is a little worried about social studies. I'm sure he will still be on the honor roll.

Amber will be starting her dance classes again on the 5th of Febuary, she is so excited! I hope that now she kinda knows everyone that she will do even better than last year. I wish Darin would show some interest in something sporty. I am pretty sure that the next flyer i get about a family bowling league i will sign us up on it. That's the only thing that he was actually into.

My job is sucking more and more everyday. Lately i have come home drained! They want you to be able to work miracles in a couple hours. I've still been applying online for jobs. But i really feel bad for Frank. He HATES his job!! I hope that he will be able to find something in a little cleaner place, making a bit more money and with benefits.

Well now that i have fully bummed you all out. I am hitting the hay.
gnight'

GOOD RIDENCE 2006!

Amber and Masen(my freind Barb's boy)
don't they make a cute couple? He's destined to make 6 digits when he grows up. He is the smartest kid i know!











My bestest friend in the whole world who left me to move 3 hours away to open her own farm...lol I miss her! I am so happy that we got be with each other for the new year.





Hello 2007! Since there is a 7 in this number i am hoping for a better year than 2006!
We celebrated with my best friend Barb and her family and my mom popped in to rush in the New Year!
We had some snack items, did some dancing to the radio on channel 95.5 was playing some of the best songs to dance to. Then we played some card games while the kids were in the rooms playing games, having pillow fights, and whatever else they do to occupy their time.



Frank does not drink anymore, just a beer every now and then, so he decided that he was going to get himself drunk. He really regretted it around 12:30 am. when he started to throw up everything that he drank, ate, and then some up. I was happy with my one wine cooler :)

Well HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! I pray for better things to come in 2007!

Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone enjoyed their Christmas and I hope Santa was very kind to you all!

I was woke up at the butt crack of dawn by 2 children that will remain nameless ahemmm(Darin and Amber) begging for me to wake up and watch them open presents. You should have heard them when i told them they were going to open them after dinner at my mothers. You would have thought the heavens were going to open up and lightning was going to strike down on our house. lol Of course i was kidding! I set up the camcorder and the ritual began....each gets a gift opens it then the other opens theirs and so on and so forth. Clothes discarded like mistakes under the tree...while toys and games and anything really cool, got opened and examined like disease under a microscope..lol

Amber favorites were the nintendo ds lite and her eeyore fleece! I got that fleece for a major bargain! regular 30 dollars on sale for 12.99 and i ended up paying 9.99! She loves eeyore and for the life of me I don't know why ....we never watch winnie the pooh...??? go figure.

Darin favorites of course was the nintendo ds lite and the jewelry he got. I got him a skull necklace and ring, i also got a necklace made out of horse shoe nails that one of my customers make for the holidays and money goes to "toys for tots".

Of course their most favorite gift was what they got from Grandma and Grandpa! Spending money to get whatever they didn't get from us. Darin spent the day today looking for games to play in his system and Amber was pretty conservative today. She did buy a game and a couple posters and she even bought a haircut today when i went to get mine.

They still have money ....but want to hold on for other things.
I took some of my money and got my hair done and bought some really needed socks and undies. The things that i put off buying for myself.

Christmas was wonderful, and i think the best ever, if i could erase the 5 hours that i had to work. This year there was no 2 car hauling of gifts from Grandmas and Grandpas house to mine. Finding a spot for every toy, no assembly of toys, no batteries recommended. No headaches what so ever!

Mom did a fantastic job of dinner! Everything was great as ever. I went over on Sunday and helped prep Christmas dinner, whatever she needed a hand in, i was there. We had stuffed cabbage, italian sausage, polish sausage, ham, potatoes, corn, biscuits, all the vege trays, cheese trays, pies, cakes etc. etc. etc. she did outdo herself. :) Thanks MOMMA ...LOVE YOU!

I scrubbed the bathroom down for her, thankfully my sister did a great job of helping with the rest of the house for her. I aprreciated that!

Today was an off day for me, so shopping was done, hair got done and believe or not...ALL the Christmas decorations down and put back in the garage....I love getting my house back to the way it should be after Chritmas. Plus, just in case it decides to dump alot of snow on the ground i am not stuck with the decorations forever and not in bitter cold!

I pray that the New Year will bring better things to come for everyone!
Merry belated Christmas and if i don't get back on here....HAPPY NEW YEAR!

one more meme for Christmas

Thanks Momma's corner for the meme's! It was fun.
1. What is the worst Christmas gift you ever received? Not going to answer this one on the grounds that it may incriminate me. lol

2. Two weeks before Christmas you win $1 million. You have to spend it all by the end of this year and you cannot buy anything for yourself. How do you celebrate the holidays? Send as many friends friends and family on a vacation! since i can't take myself...hopefully they will bring me a souvenier.

3. Do you have any family traditions? What are they and do you continue the tradition in your own household? - Other then going to my mothers for dinner, that's about it.

4. What is your favorite smell from this season? I usually bye the spice apple scents for the outlets in the house. It really smells great.

5. Do you regift? (That’s when you get something you hate and give it to someone else on another Christmas later) - no, If i don't want, no one will! someday it will end up in the trash.

6. If you have kids, how hard do you try to preserve the myth of Santa Claus? What do you do to keep the Fat Man “alive?” I tryed really hard the younger they were. But now at 11 and 12 they were starting to piece things together. Also for them to have an understanding that we are not financially sound, I will try to make every effort to get what they want...but if i can't ...i can't

7. When do you decorate your house and tree? When do you take everything down? I put it up as soon as i have a day off right after Thanksgiving, and i take it all down the day off from work after Christmas. I'm anxious to get it all up...but right after Christmas i am done with them and want my space back in the living room.

8. Do you sing along with the Christmas muzak in the stores? What’s your favorite Christmas song and which is the one that you hate so badly that you go postal and run amok in the aisles of Walmart when you hear it? - Of course i sing to music, "it's beginning to look alot like Christmas" the one that i hate is "grandma got run over by a reindeer". Just tired of hearing it.
Thanks again momma's corner.

Joining in the fun of Christmas!

Time for a Meme. Let’s do one about Yuletide. This one has been bouncing around on various sites so I figured I’d do it:

1. Egg nog or hot chocolate? I like them both, but if i had to pick, hot chocolate

2.Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? both!

3.Colored lights or white on tree/house? No white lights here! more color the better!

4.Do you hang mistletoe? No, I'm going to greet every person with a kiss anyways!

5.What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)? My moms stuffed cabbage! I look forward to Christmas just because of that!

6.Favorite holiday memory as a child? The fact that we did not get much during the year, but on Christmas we always got what we asked for and then some.

7.When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? I started to figure it out when everything we asked for was in the buggy at stores, mom and dad would say they were for so-and-so but we never visited them, but on Christmas it was under the tree.

8.Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? When we were really young we would, but as we got older it was always on Christmas Day and after dinner.

9.How do you decorate your Christmas Tree? After putting it together i string on chasing lights, followed by red garland, then gold and red beads , then the kids put on the ornaments that have been gathered thru the years.

10.Snow, love it or dread it? I love snow! but hate ice!

11.Do you know how to ice skate? Not very well, did it alot when i was a child, but now i would not put skates on at all.

12.Do you remember your favorite gift? I would have to say back in "93" when i found out i was pregnant and finally got my engagement ring.

13.What’s the most important thing about the holidays for you? Being with my kids and my folks.

14.What is your favorite holiday dessert? Homemade cookies!

15.What is your favorite holiday tradition? getting up to watch the kids open their presents before the butt crack of dawn.

16.What tops your tree? I have a beautiful fiber optic angel that moves her arms.

17.Which do you prefer giving or receiving? I love giving gifts that really mean alot, and very suprising.

18.Favorite Christmas Song? "It's beginning to look alot like Christmas"

19.Favorite flavor of Candy Canes? peppermint is the best.
I got this from Momma's corner...thanks for letting me join in.

Dancing in Silver!

As you all know my daughter has been going to hip-hop dance classes. Well for the past two months they were doing a routine to prepare them for a dance competition that they just had on Saturday. We had to drive 1 1/2 hours to Lansing for this competition. We had alot of fun watching all the kids doing their routines on stage. So many talented kids!

Amber's team did really well for only 4 students showing up! THEY GOT SILVER MEDALS!
I'm so proud of Amber and her team mates! She is thinking of continuing classes and trying out for the next level of dance class.






Amber is in back on the left...performing












Amber in back and on the left.













Amber and her teacher Miss Alexis(in the camoflauge outfit)...Amber is looking down at her Silver medal she got.





You go girl!

We lost a good man

John Viterbo1933 - 2006
John Viterbo age 73 of Port Hope passed away Sunday, December 3, 2006 at Harbor Beach Community Hospital. John was born on October 19, 1933 in Pennsylvania to the late Anthony and Jenny (Jako) Viterbo. He then married Marjorie Bagnasco on November 7, 1954 in Detroit. John was a member of St. Germaine Catholic Church of St. Clair Shores. Surviving is his wife Marjorie, his son Anthony Viterbo of Port Hope, and his daughter Marjorie Viterbo of Macomb. 2 grandchildren Cindy Korber and John Viterbo, and 2 great grandchildren. Funeral services will be Wednesday, Dec. 6, 2006 at 11am in the Ramsey Funeral Home, Harbor Beach with Fr. T.J, Fleming of Our Lady of Lake Huron Catholic Chruch officiating. Burial in the New River Cemetery, Huron City.

This was my Uncle...Apparently he was getting some firewood outside and when he did not come back in my Aunt found him laying on the ground. She did all she could to revive him but was unsucessful. Doctors say it was a massive heart attack.

My mother and I drove out this morning to his service and gathering. We started early because it was a 2 1/2 hour drive to Harbor Beach Michigan for us. It was a beautiful drive up, we got to see alot of Lake Huron on the way up. Thank God the weather was not bad for the trip.

My memories of my Uncle John that keep stirring in my head are of him sitting at a huge table that he had in his family room. He was a very scary looking man, if you looked up mafia in the dictionary, his picture would have been there. Well anyways, he would look at you, and say in a very deep voice "come here" we would say "NO". He would say "I said come here!" My sister and I would be scared to death! But we did what we were told. When he got us in reach, he would grab us and lick our faces!!!!!!!!! OMG the torture. It was his fun to torture the scared children...lol As we grew older he was much more easier to talk to...and he didn't lick our faces...lol

God love him and accept him!

Happy Thanksgiving

The morning started at 5 a.m. to get things packed up for the downtown America's Thanksgiving parade. By 6 a.m we were seated and enjoying our donuts and hot chocolate waiting for the parade to begin. The weather was gorgeous! Was not cold at all while we waited for the parade start another 3 and a half hours later. The parade was one of the best i have seen in while.

But when the parade was done i had to go to the bathroom in the worst way! It hurt so bad just to move. Thank God Starbucks was open, but the wait was almost unbearable.
*Mental reminder* no hot chocolate or water during the parade.

When we got home which was pretty early, we pulled out some christmas lights for the cutter. Frank always gets on the roof and does that part for me. Since he will not be here to assist with the other decorations that i will be working on Friday. *It's beginning to look alot like Christmas* is running thru my mind when i see the lights.

So around 1:30 in the afternoon i went to my mom's for dinner to see if she needed me to do anything. I had went over there on Wednesday and helped with the cleaning the house, chopping all the veges, making my special cheese dip for the crackers and i made the deviled eggs that really went over well.

We had so much to eat,
Turkey
stuffing,
mashed potatoes
cranberrie sauce
all kinds of veges
corn
green beans
rolls
sweet potatoes
deviled eggs
cheese and crackers
pies
cakes

It was sooooo much to eat, but the best stuff was the stuffing! Mom's stuffing really was the best she had made ever. She did make it a bit different this year. All i have to say is " do it again, do it again"...lol
I hope everyone had the greatest Thanksgiving ever.

TADA....Amber the Magnificent!

Amber's D.A.R.E. officer Mrs. Walny.













Amber and her teacher at the D.A.R.E. graduation.










Amber is now a proud graduate of D.A.R.E!
She worked really hard for 9 weeks and is now pledging that she will not do drugs, smoke, or drink!

My only hope is that she don't fall to the wrong crowd and break that oath!
I'm already worrying about my kids and what they will put me thru the next few years.


If you look closely at Amber's hair you can see the highlights that i put in her hair the night before. I put caramel highlights and they look FABULOUS on her.
It really shows off her face in person.



I'm really proud of her! She really wanted me there. I had to switch my shifts to be there for her. My life is my kids, and my kids are my life :)

Halloween coverage!

I hope everyone had a great Halloween!
I was lucky to get to dress my daughter up for Halloween and go to her school and see all the wonderful costumes. The school has a parade for the parents and other students. I took my mother to the parade and we enjoyed all the new and original costumes. This man is Mr. Turner, my daughter's teacher. He came as Fred Flinstone, he almost looks like him with his stubble on his face.


































My daughter chose to be a hippie this year...I absolutely love the costume! She loved it too! I drew a peace sign on her left cheek and i drew Love on the right cheek in bubble letters. She got rave reviews at school. She won second place for costumes in her class. I guess a princess beat her this year. Last year Amber won first place with her skeleton pirate.















The glasses had little peace signs on the lenses. So adorable!


















Well I really got depressed about not being able to take Amber trick or treating. This was the first year that i was not able to walk at least a hour with them. I had to work! I know she did fine with her dad...but you know how it is.

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I got a pre-test from a hospital and apparently i passed it because they emailed me saying that i move on to the next phase. (what ever that means)...I would love to get into a hospital, more job security. Their will always be sick people. The bad thing is that i have applied to so many of the hospital jobs i don't know what they are interested in hiring me for. I'm sure whatever it is i will be able to do it just fine.

I'm still looking for a full time job with benefits. And my husband is still looking. Until i get his license fixed, he can't be too serious about it at the moment. I payed his ticket and i have already mailed the money to reinstate is license in New Jersey...then i just have to see what else i have to do.
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Well report cards are coming soon...i am totally confident that my kids are doing great!
Darin has brought home A+ progress reports to most of his classes...It doesn't leave much for the teachers to talk to me about except how nice my son is. Darin is getting an A+ in algebra, I had a hell of a time with that...but he is getting it.
Ambers grade does not send out progress reports, other than a weekly not saying if they have late assignments or their behavior in class. But so far their are no bad marks against her. I do know that she is not doing so great in math...and that is/has been an ongoing battle.
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Well i'm off to bed...

A TALE OF CAROLINE

All i can say is it's really interesting this week.
I left off with breaking my finger...that is now feeling way better and i am able to type without pain again. That was so much fun and my finger turned so many pretty colors of purple.

Just 2 days after all this my daughter started complaining about her ear hurting her and it turned out that she had a bad ear infection..She is much better now with a weeks worth of antibiotics in her system.

This Sunday my son was jumping on the trampoline at the neighbors and did something really stupid landing his full weight on his ankles. The way he was acting you would have thought it was broken, but I knew it wasn't ...it was not grossly swollen and no black and blue...so the only thing it could have been was a really bad sprain. But just in case i rushed him to our doctor and confirmed it was badly sprained and he was issued crutches because he could not put any weight on it. But today you wouldn't know that anything was wrong with him other than a small limp.

The good news is i am finally caught up with my bills:)
I got a new washer machine and dryer...but that is another story...here let me tell ya it.
Friday Frank and I went to ABC warehouse to purchase a new washer and dryer because my dryer just refused to dry anything anymore and the washer machine was borrowed from the neighbor and he was telling us that his machine was acting up and he would need his back when his broke down. Well Frank took the old ones out and Saturday they delivered our new ones....Soon after they left my husband noticed that the dryer had a pretty big dent in it....well we paid for a brand new dryer...soooooo i have not done laundry since last Thursday...And the new one will be delivered on Wednesday. You should see the mound of clothes that i got to do as soon as i get it hooked up.

I'm still looking for a different job. I wish that i didn't have to, i really did love my job. But these days it's just unpredictable. Frank is going to apply after work at another job tomorrow. Cross whatever you can that he gets it...it's more money and great medical insurance!

Amber has been taking hip hop dance class...and she is really getting good at it. She is excited about it, she wants to sign up to do the dance competition on December 2nd. It's going to be in Lansing. I've already put my day off at work to go and see it.

On Thursday i have to take my truck in to get the windshield wipers fixed...they won't work on fast speed at all. This won't be good if rain and snow is coming down to hard to see thru.

The only way to end this tale is to say
THE END :)

Even GOD has a sense of humor

Ok...so being behind in bills, Frank working the most crappiest of jobs, and Me working at a job that i don't know if I'm going to work full time or part time. They paid my vacation hours off, which means that i will never have another paid vacation again. Which means i will probably go insane in the next year, if all this was not funny enough, He thought it would be funny to break my left, middle finger in a garage door.

I was shutting the garage door and my fingers got caught in between 2 of the garage door sections. OH MY GOD THE PAIN! Right away dark blue across my finger nail.....60 seconds later it was followed my gushes and gushes of blood. I thought i would have to go to emergency because i did not think it was going to stop. Well i at least got it to slow down, I showed mom and she wanted me to go to the doctors ...I did not go. I did not think it was necessary because it was the tip of my finger, all they would do is put a popsicle stick and give me pain medicine. I can splint it if i have to at home and the pain, i've had worse pain with a c-section. And it would rack up a $400 dollor bill that i don't need right now. Soooo here i am trying trying to not type with it. Work is hilarious...lots of ouches get said.

Soooo much fun to live my life.
We finally broke down and cashed in Frank's 401 k so that we can catch up on things around here....Also did I mention my clothes dryer took a crap! Yep ...so we are going to be purchasing another one as soon as the check clears.

I haven't even mentioned that my husband lost his wallet ummm about 2 weeks ago and when we went to get a new one for him we found out that he has a suspended license in New Jersey with a ticket in the amount of $248 that he never paid 20 f***ing years ago. So i have to mail them a money order to pay that...then they will mail me a reciept...then i get to pay $100 dollars to the New Jersey DMV to reinstate his license...then they have to clear it up in lansing and then we can get his license. fun, fun, fun.

This is all the stuff that i did not want to mention while trying to keep an up mood during Amber's party.

But it all can't be happy endings in 30 minutes or less...
i'm getting tired..and my finger is killing me...
so g'night all

Introducing our snake

This is Darin's pet snake Fang!
Darin got this snake for his birthday 3 years ago. I have to say that taking care of a snake is easier than taking care of any of the other animals. Fang is a Ball Python and a very nice snake. Last summer i took it to the pet store and the man was able to sex Fang and tell us that she was a girl. Then wanted to mate her, because it is very rare that a pet store gives up the girls for mating purposes. I told him that i would think about it, but i decided not too. Right now Fang is about 3 1/2 feet long, and can eat a medium size rat.

Thanks mom for all the pics that you sent. I gave Fang her 10 seconds of fame. :)

Ambers Birthday Party

This is Ambers best friend Lisa





















My girl, is 11 now :)















Isn't she cute ?

Happy Birthday Amber

Amber's turned eleven on Tuesday! Time is flying! It feels like yesterday i had her..
The other day I was looking in the photo albums for pictures for Darin to use on a Autobiography for school project. Looking at all those pictures sent me into memoryville. It still amazes me that they were that small at one time. I started to think of all the cute things they used to do. I remember when Darin was 3 and 4 he would put socks on his hands and pretend that he was a boxer and want to fight daddy, it was so cute. Amber had a high pitch squeaky voice and would holler for Darin in the cutest of ways. I remember that we had the hardest of times to keep clothes on the girl! She would strip down to her diaper every chance she could get!
Awwwww memories!
Now she is eleven and she is going thru so much so fast, with puberty, her acne problem, and the girl is really developing if you know what i mean. Baby girl has curves!
Since i did 12 reasons i love Darin on his birthday, i think i better do Amber's 11:
I Love:
1) that she is able to speak her mind
2) that she wants to help others all the time.
3) when she tells me she loves me.
4) that she loves animals.
5) that she already knows what she wants to be in her life.
6) that she loves to listen to music and can name the song and the title.
7) that she can make me laugh.
8) that she is so adventurous.
9) that she tries hard in school
10) that she can make friends very easily
11) I LOVE that she is mine.
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As you know on the 17th was my anniversary, well on Sunday i was woke up by my son standing in front of me holding a plate with a egg sandwich on it. He said "would you like a egg sandwich mom? I made it for you". I was shocked, I asked "what made you do this for me?" he said "because i didn't do anything for you anniversary". Then he told me that his sister helped with the little breakfast in bed thing. Isn't that the sweetest thing in the world?
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I'm not going to talk about all the crappy stuff that's happened this week, it will only take away from all the nice things that i have said...i will write about the bad stuff next time.
You all take it easy..

Happy Anniversary to us.

Frank and I celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary on the 17th. We have been together 14 years almost to the date. We have had our good days and of course right now we are going thru our bad days. But hopefully things will be right again soon.

We didn't do anything special because i had to work in the evening, but i was suprised at home with a card and a rose. Times are tight, so to get that was just enough....the card was really nice. Just to put the card in a nut shell, it says that he LOVES ME. And my card pointed out how lucky i am to have a man like him in my life.

Although I have told him that i sacrificed myself and married him to save all the women. In return he says that he saved all men from having me..lol just our little love words..lol
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Amber started hip hop dance class today and is really excited about it. I figured in junior high and high school there are so many dances that at least she may be comfortable if she had some neat dance moves. The classes are only $7.00 a week for 15 weeks. I should be able to come up with that.

Darin wants to go on this field trip to washington d.c., he would see zoo's and museums and i'm not really sure what else until the meeting on the 28th. The teacher said that the price is going to be $600 dollars. Thankfully we can make installment payments on this. He really wants to go and of course i want to be able to give him that.

A lady at work calls me super mom, I don't think i am that...i just want what all mom's want their kids to be happy and experience new things.
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Because i work in a Video store you would think that's all i would talk about right?
Well i really haven't been keeping up like i should be..
But here i go.
On Tuesday
"Stick It" -----If you have teenagers...this movie is highly recommended..It's about gymnastics with a comedy twist to it.

"Fast and the Furious tokyo" -- you know who i recommend this too...to the men! Fast cars...everyman will be glued.
ok...
movies that are already out
"Brother Bear 2" I actually thought it was cuter than the first one.
"Sentinal" was great from what i heard.

I will try and keep up with my movies ...I might have more time to watch them now that i am not working so many hours.

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Still looking for a job here...I will take anything at this point full or part time to make up the difference in hours...
I hope that all is well with you all and that all of you are happily working :)

Anyone hiring?

Well, sorry it's been so long, but it's really hard to keep updating when your looking for work. While i am on vacation i was informed that when i get back my hours are going to be cut in half! My vacation that i earn will be no more, i have exactly one day left after this week. And even better they are taking away my health insurance.

Panic started to set in! And i am still nervous, but with every bad thing has a good thing. Today Frank put an application to a factory and they hired him on the spot. It's great news butttttt....He's not making nearly what he was making, but it will be 40 + hours. Which he is not getting any from his current job. When his job calls, he is going to inform them that he found full time employment elsewhere. He will be getting benefits hopefully in just a couple of months. Now it becomes my turn to go half unemployment. But at least i can look for a job with or without insurance.

I am looking for a full time job, but i will probably stay working for Blockbuster 2 days a week to supplement the loss of wages. I did make a resume..And i was going to post it on here..but it won't go on here for some reason...oh well i tried...

One last bang for the summer

On Thursday was a beautiful day! It was my day off, and i thought what a great day to be walking around the state fair. I couldn't get it out of my mind. I managed to say screw it again and squeeze enough to go...(i know i will regret it) but... I really wanted to go, Amber would love being around the animals. The kids would really enjoy the rides. And it was not so unbearably hot that i would not be able to walk around the fair.

We all had fun, i wished the kids rode a few more rides, but they were afraid of alot of the rides.
I love walking around the craft building, people are so creative! I wish i had half the creativity as some people. Amber loved petting the horses and goats and pigs. She got to pet a baby pig and a baby chicken. Frank loved looking at the police officer working with his attack dog. He also liked looking at some of the new trucks that they had on display. It only cost $80,000! That's a freakin house!

Well as of today at 5:00 pm. i am officially on vacation for the week! I'm not going anywhere, just staying home and listening to the quiet in the house when the kids go back to school! No more sleeping in for me ..which is a very sad thing...but maybe the fighting between them will start to calm down.

well i'm going to bed now...take care all...

Sometimes you have to say screw it

The title means that i did get to take my kids up North to see my best friend and her kids and all the animals that she has gathered in 2 years. My kids had a blast feeding the turkeys and the goats and the pigs and chickens. In her garage she has 11 rabits and and one barn kitten. The house had every indoor animal that you could think of! She has 6 dogs and I don't know how many cats...because I am allergic she made sure to keep those out of my sight. The snakes, birds and (daygus?it's kinda like a squirrel). were all over the house.

Every morning all the kids woke up to watering and feeding all the animals! This takes about an hour with 5 children doing it. They were excited to have Amber and Darin helping them do all this for 2 mornings. After all the animals were fed, all the children were fed their breakfast and were able to play with the animals or walk around the area. We even took them into town and walked around a couple stores. I got to see a store that carried horse saddles and bridles and all kids of feed for different farm animals. You don't see that around here.

I did take pictures, but it might take me a month to finish the camera to get developed. I have some pictures developed that i will be posting just as soon as i get to moms and have her scan and email me them.

Friday and Saturday was so wet and muddy out there in Lupton. It was pretty cold up there also. We were planning on letting the kids go swimming walking the goats and doing all kids of stuff, but the rain did not permit anything like that to happen. We did manage a night time walk by a cemetary...umm don't ask...lol I would not go in, but i would not have minded walking in it in the day time..i like looking at old head stones. The plan was to scare some of the children...yeh...kind of cruel...most of the kids were not phased. It was just some excercise for the kids. We were checking out the stars and hoping to see some deer walking in the roads.

Sunday we got up early to go up to the high school to see some of the children do their cheerleading for the football games and one of the kids was in a game of football. Three football games later and one bad sunburn to the face it was time to head home! Yeh..the last day up north and the sun finally showed up! Sucks! Funny thing is, by the time i got home its been doing nothing but raining here! Geesh!

Times are tight, which sucks, but what can you do. I still don't know what they are going to do about my job. They have snuck some hours away from our crew to give to me....but if they get busted on it i will be going down in hours. I have been looking everyday at other possibilities...if i do get another full time job i am going to try and keep blockbusters part time. Every penny helps ya know. Frank worked 3 days last week and he did work today and we know he is working tomorrow, but other than that its a who knows kind of thing.

Next week i am on vacation for a week! I like to take the first week of school off so i can take care of anything that the kids need in the first week. I got everything on Amber's list of things for school in her backpack and ready to go. Darin did not have a list, so i got him what i know he will need for starters, like pens, pencils, erasers, compositions books, paper. Anything else will have to wait and see what he is going to need. Amber's list had baby wipes and antibacterial wipes....i can understand the antibacterial wipes...but why the baby wipes? I will have to see what Amber says they use those for.

Well...I am getting tired...and i have to get up early for work.Later all!

I want off the ride

I finally have a day off, I just worked the hardest 6 days straight! On Saturday they even had us come in at midnight for a mandatory meeting, then lucky me got to open the store the next morning. :P At least i am still working, but not sure how long. I talked to my district leader and she says the only thing that will save my hours and my benefits is if i moved up to Assistant Store Manager. I am not too crazy about all the responsibility that comes with. Mostly more paper work to learn about, but not much more than what i am doing already. Unless i can find a job that will help me like soon i am not sure what else to do. I have to make a living.

Frank's job works him so sporadic that it's getting ridiculous, some good news maybe is that my neighbor knows someone hiring and is going to put a good word in for Frank. It is a guarantee 40 hours a week...so let's all hope.

The kids are not looking forward to school in just a couple weeks, although i think they are just a little bit bored. On the 25th i am taking them up north to Lupton, Mi. to visit with my best friend and all the animals. I am hoping that i can make that possible.

I went to the Salvation Army and bought Amber some clothes for school, we looked at alot of jeans and pants. I actually found some with tags still on them. I walked out with 5 pairs of pants and 2 shirts and 2 belts for only $22.oo. I am getting a lay-a-way out at Walmart for socks and underwear and a couple outfits on Friday, so at least my kids will have some clothes when school starts. I was really worried about Amber because she is growing like a weed and none of her clothes that fit her last year will fit now. Darin's still wearing the same size pants as last year so he still has some...but i wanted him to have a different variety this year...you know how kids are with the trends.

I have alot of the kids school supplies already put up. I caught alot of good deals, like notepads for a dime and colored pencils for .88 cents markers for .88 cents and crayons for a dime.
Amber also needed a tri-fold presentation board for a science project, i found that at the local dollar store for $2.50 instead of $6.00 at the local office max.
Somehow i find the way to make a twenty dollar bill feel like a fifty...lol

I helped mom pack away the swimming pool since noone seems to be using it. I can see why she did it because it does cost alot to maintain it.

My son turns 12 on Wednesday the 16th! Time flies! Darin was born at 10:29 in the morning weighing in at 9 lbs. 11 oz. and 21 inches. Now he is 5'4 and I won't say what he weighs now..lol That will only embarrass him. But he is difinitely built for football. He does not know what he wants for his birthday. At first he wanted a new game but now he says he's not sure. So he has until Friday to figure it all out. Yeh, i know he has to wait for his present and all. Well that's what happens when you live from paycheck to paycheck.

Well goodnight all...take care

I hope i don't babble on

The only thing i really have to talk about is my deep depression on what life has to keep throwing at me, I know I am not the only one that is in trouble but this is my blog and my worry. I'm so worried about things its really making me sick to my stomach. I have to talk to my district leader to see if either a) when i am going to lose my hours or b) how can i save my job.
I only have experience in retail, or the restaurant business, and i don't want to do that again, and no one is going to pay me near what i am making now. Plus i have to have benefits! My pills alone will put me into severe debt.
I wonder if life will get better? Can a new president turn things around? what a difference life has made for it self since our current president has been in office. Am i the only one that feels this way?
Sorry i am venting...I will try to talk about something else.
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My dad had the week off for vacation so i really did not have to go over and take care of mom this week. I did go over with Darin and he helped me mow the lawn really fast before the heat got to be too much. Darin really loves riding the lawnmower and he gets to earn a few dollars.
We will be bright eyed and bushy tailed come Monday to visit grandma, we miss her and i am sure that my dad has about drove her crazy!

Amber is starting to do what i have asked her to do for a long time. She is wearing a headband to bed now...Not because i told her to, but because my best friend Barb told her to do it! Aunty Barb has more clout than I! If there is anything that i want done i just have to call Barb and somehow she is able to work her magic on her. What is great about it is that it's actually helping with the acne.

Well all...i gotta get some sleep..
Ya'll take care and i hope life is treating you better.

The Trip

On Friday i had to make the decision that there was not going to be any way to afford a hotel room the night before the trip. So about 4 a.m. we all got up to make the 5 hour drive down to Cincinnati, Ohio to King's Island. (Mind you that i really made it in about 41/2)

I could not sleep Friday night at all, I tried about 4 times to lay down and go to sleep, but it was just not going to happen. I felt like the Walt Disney commercial that said "I'm to excited to sleep". That and I am too stressed out about bills and such. So I got no sleep at all and drove all the way there.

We made it down there just as they opened the park. We mapped out our course and went to town on all the fun rides. Darin went on his first roller coaster and his daddy said that he was gonna puke. I love roller coasters and I wished that i could have done them with him, but alas my fat ass could not fit in the roller coasters seats. How dissapointing! How embarrassing! I did get to go on the White Water Rafting ride. That would be alot funner if you can go barefooting so your shoes don't get wet. The kids LOVED this ride! They went on it two times. They also loved the Scrambler, that's always their favorite at a carnival.

We went on the replica of the Eifel Tower, it's only a third the size of the real one. All i can say is that i don't want to even attempt the real Eifel Tower. But we did get a beautiful view of the whole park and some of Ohio.

We also went to the water park there and they had a blast in the pools and the slides and the large fun water activities they had there. They were totally soaked and having so much fun. I just waded my legs in the water, i was not up for swimming .

We did make it to the last show of what they called the "School of Rock". It was a concert and they played alot of rock music of the "80's", Me and Frank were rockin it out. lol The kids really enjoyed the music also and they pretty much said that was their favorite part.

We stayed at the park from 10 in the morning till 7:30 at night. We were all under the same sun and I am still wondering why i was the only one that got fried! My face looked like a huge tomato! My husband has nothing my son and daughter has nothing...just me! God just hates me i guess.

So after that we decided that we better start heading home. I drove all the way back home on zero sleep! It was a hard feat but i managed. I am glad that i had packed pop and chips for the ride home. Luckily the cooler kept everything cold. I made it home in only 4 hours! Only had to make one potty break! It was great to get home into our air conditioning and fans, it felt so nice on my red hot face. All in all we all had fun. But i think we would have had more fun at Seaworld, watching the animals do tricks.

In other news...I was just told today that in probably a couple of months they will be cutting my hours in half. When one of our managers returns to our store, supposedly we both will get 20 hours. I pray that won't happen...but I have to start looking for a full time job, so i am not lost if it does happen. This really sucks!!!! I'm really worried about losing medical, all my pills.
Hopefully everything will turn out alright. Pray for me..
Thanks